My story and little bit of venting

January 4, 2008

Hello everyone. My name is Rob and I live in the western suburbs of

Chicago. I have been what everyone calls " lurking " the last few

weeks, but I decided to post as I am struggling today. I was in a

car accident a little under a year ago. I had some broken bones, a

concussion, and facial cuts that required plastic surgery. During my

three month recovery my doctors helped my pain with the typical

hydrocodone and later oxycodone. The hydro puts me in such a fog and

I barely function. The broken bones and cuts have healed, but I am

almost in more pain now than the weeks immediatly after the

accident. My neck and shoulder and shoulder blade has a dull pain

that is slowly driving me insane.

The problem is that my doctors think that I am fine now that my

visible injuries have healed. My doctor will still give me 30

hydrocodone a month (I sware out of pity because I can just see it in

his eyes that he does not beleive me). He will not give me oxycodone

at this point and stated that he will not be giving me any more pain

meds at all very soon. I have requested X-rays & cat scans just

hoping that they can see the pain I am feeling but they keep telling

me that everything has healed.

I went to a docor who specializes in pain in the city (I live in the

west burbs), but he didn't want anything to do with me. I am a

younger guy (late 20's) and look like a big football player (6ft 6

240lbs) and I think she made her decision about me before I even said

a word.

I guess I am just venting, but I can not sleep and I barely make it

through my 8 hour day at work. Having to be hunched over a computer

at work just brings tears to my eyes with how bad my shoulder hurts.

It sounds horrible, but I probably would have already bought

oxycontin from a family friend of mine that used to sell me a few

because she saw me after the accident, but she is in such bad health

right now she needs everyone. When I would take the 80mg oxycontin I

was actually productive at work and probably was down to a 2 pain

level.

The way the doctors in my life have been, I am more actively

searching for a " hook-up " rather than another doctor. I honestely

cant beleive that I just actually typed that! It is sad when a

otherwise law abiding person is now looking buy prescription drugs

instead of his doctors helping or at least beleiving me.

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