Guest guest Posted January 7, 2008 Report Share Posted January 7, 2008 I feel the same way , My nada wrote me a letter after I asked to go NC until she quit drinking, and got some couseling. She wrote back and said I had to accept her as she accepted her mother, blah, blah, blah. Christmas was very quiet although she did call and talked to my husband (I handed him he phone as he was the closest) and kids. She didn't ask about me......only told my kids to make arrangement to pick up their gifts (which is a joke, who leaves it up to kids to make the arrangements???). I know if she was in threat of NC with my enmeshed sister, she wouldn't have let a day go by without saying sorry, or doing back flips to make it better. But because it is me.....no way. Which only says to me that my feelings are correct. That I am RIGHT about the way I feel and the way she makes me feel. How she ever thought she could treat me one way, and my stupid sister another and me never question it??? It used to work though....I would confront her.....she would call me selfish " you sister isn't married " " your sister doesn't have any money " " your sister is alone " blah, blah, blah. She never could just throw me a bone once in a while. It just so twisted since her own mother did the same to her, and I had to hear about it over, and over, and over, as a kid. She is just repeating her past with me......and I am not falling for it!!! She can't have her cake and eat it too!!! NC is hard but it is worth it!!! drlingirl > > Sara Jo, > > I can relate to what you're saying about how you feel you don't have > a grip on anything. I went NC just a couple of weeks before you did > & although I didn't miss having nada around for t-day & xmas, it > started to bug me that she didn't even try to cause a problem over > the holidays, which I had honestly expected her to do. (Everyone > else's nada seems to...!) Calling, crying, pouting, making a scene > is at least some kind of reaction. What I don't get about myself is > that most holidays I was just her backup plan, her " ace in the > hole " . I always had to work any celebration with her around her > primary plan, to be with her nephew (whom she always called an ass) > or a friend or my ex-sister-in-law's family. Anyone BUT me. And in > fact, daughter, gbabies & I had a warm, beautiful stress-free > Christmas without her. > > Her craziness was the most constant thing in my life since the > beginning & I think I'm starting to feel a little disoriented without > it. > > I had starting reading Surviving a Borderline Parent mid-December but > began to feel so distressed I stopped reading (for now). I didn't > know if I wanted to cry, throw the book through the window, or just > pull the covers over my head. Even though they are helpful as a > whole, I didn't even read any posts for a few weeks. I just couldn't > handle it. > > Before going NC I wrote and sent nada a one-page letter, and I find > that reading the copy of it I saved on my computer soothes me. I > don't know why - maybe it just affirms my decision? Or is it just the > last twisted connection to " mom " ? > > If you're interested in the letter, email me offline & I'll send it > to you. You really sound like you're doing great though. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2008 Report Share Posted January 7, 2008 So true about the justifying their favoring of one sibling over another! My dad talks to my brother daily, and when he realizes that I might notice, he says " Well, I feel like I should help him and make sure he's doing well..... " As if to say " If you don't 'need' me, I'm not sure how to relate to you. " The fact that he jumps in to justify it tells you he knows it looks bad. > > > > Sara Jo, > > > > I can relate to what you're saying about how you feel you don't > have > > a grip on anything. I went NC just a couple of weeks before you > did > > & although I didn't miss having nada around for t-day & xmas, it > > started to bug me that she didn't even try to cause a problem over > > the holidays, which I had honestly expected her to do. (Everyone > > else's nada seems to...!) Calling, crying, pouting, making a > scene > > is at least some kind of reaction. What I don't get about myself > is > > that most holidays I was just her backup plan, her " ace in the > > hole " . I always had to work any celebration with her around her > > primary plan, to be with her nephew (whom she always called an > ass) > > or a friend or my ex-sister-in-law's family. Anyone BUT me. And > in > > fact, daughter, gbabies & I had a warm, beautiful stress-free > > Christmas without her. > > > > Her craziness was the most constant thing in my life since the > > beginning & I think I'm starting to feel a little disoriented > without > > it. > > > > I had starting reading Surviving a Borderline Parent mid- December > but > > began to feel so distressed I stopped reading (for now). I didn't > > know if I wanted to cry, throw the book through the window, or > just > > pull the covers over my head. Even though they are helpful as a > > whole, I didn't even read any posts for a few weeks. I just > couldn't > > handle it. > > > > Before going NC I wrote and sent nada a one-page letter, and I > find > > that reading the copy of it I saved on my computer soothes me. I > > don't know why - maybe it just affirms my decision? Or is it just > the > > last twisted connection to " mom " ? > > > > If you're interested in the letter, email me offline & I'll send > it > > to you. You really sound like you're doing great though. > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2008 Report Share Posted January 7, 2008 It's funny too that when my bro went NC she called him, me, God, man & everyone, crying, going to his house repeatedly, haranguing him until he finally had to call the police and threaten to have her arrested if she didn't leave, or if she returned again. But when I go NC? Nothing. Also funny that you were " selfish " when you confronted her over being treated differently because your sister isn't married, doesn't have kids, lives alone, etc. I was " selfish " when I confronted nada over being treated differently because I WASN'T married, DIDN'T have kids at home, lived alone, etc. (and therefore had all the time in the world to spend on her). You're SO right about being right! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2008 Report Share Posted January 7, 2008 Makes me sick!!! My sister has teeth that are in abvious need of work and our nada has the money to fix it, but she chooses to ignore it. Although she buys sister stupid crap to fill her shelves with. Who needs trinkets when their teeth are in desperate need of work??? I can't help sister with her teeth. I can't afford it. Even if I could, I would probably have a hard time doing this because it only enables her. She get taxes back every year with more than enough to fix her teeth, but instead chooses to go on a spending spree. I think, she thinks, mom and dad should pay for her teeth so she can spend her money on other stuff. Neither one of my parents are blind, they can see her teeth.....they let her bully them, they feed her, let her drink all their booze, free of charge, act out badly, pay her bills when needed, bail her out, let her move in and out of their home, but they let her teeth go??? Its crazy!!! Its like they can't stand up to her......but enable her never the less. Urgh.......drlingirl > > > > > > Sara Jo, > > > > > > I can relate to what you're saying about how you feel you don't > > have > > > a grip on anything. I went NC just a couple of weeks before you > > did > > > & although I didn't miss having nada around for t-day & xmas, it > > > started to bug me that she didn't even try to cause a problem > over > > > the holidays, which I had honestly expected her to do. > (Everyone > > > else's nada seems to...!) Calling, crying, pouting, making a > > scene > > > is at least some kind of reaction. What I don't get about > myself > > is > > > that most holidays I was just her backup plan, her " ace in the > > > hole " . I always had to work any celebration with her around her > > > primary plan, to be with her nephew (whom she always called an > > ass) > > > or a friend or my ex-sister-in-law's family. Anyone BUT me. > And > > in > > > fact, daughter, gbabies & I had a warm, beautiful stress-free > > > Christmas without her. > > > > > > Her craziness was the most constant thing in my life since the > > > beginning & I think I'm starting to feel a little disoriented > > without > > > it. > > > > > > I had starting reading Surviving a Borderline Parent mid- > December > > but > > > began to feel so distressed I stopped reading (for now). I > didn't > > > know if I wanted to cry, throw the book through the window, or > > just > > > pull the covers over my head. Even though they are helpful as a > > > whole, I didn't even read any posts for a few weeks. I just > > couldn't > > > handle it. > > > > > > Before going NC I wrote and sent nada a one-page letter, and I > > find > > > that reading the copy of it I saved on my computer soothes me. > I > > > don't know why - maybe it just affirms my decision? Or is it > just > > the > > > last twisted connection to " mom " ? > > > > > > If you're interested in the letter, email me offline & I'll send > > it > > > to you. You really sound like you're doing great though. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2008 Report Share Posted January 7, 2008 <<<You're SO right about being right!>>> I LOVE IT!!! Thanks !!! My sister thinks because she isn't married, and has lived so close (if not in nadas house) and is, and has had to take the brunt of nada's sh*t that she deserves the better treatment, and all the perks!!! She also feels no guilt about all the hand outs, and free bee's. Sister dear makes me sick......she lives her life with her hand out 24/7. I bet she sleeps with her hand out too ;0) Sister has had the power to leave all along, and to her credit, she tried 2 times. She chooses to be a stones throw away from nada....its convenient when she wants to get her buzz on, or is hungry, or needs a bill paid. Its funny she swears she is never at nada's, that she is detached.....when my niece is always online at grandmas with me, or my kids, chatting, telling me that she wants to go home, but her mother won't leave. Makes me sick that she is raising my niece in that enviroment. Have I mentioned I am 99.99% sure my sis has BP too??? So I get a two-fer.....lucky me!!! drlingirl > > It's funny too that when my bro went NC she called him, me, God, man & > everyone, crying, going to his house repeatedly, haranguing him until > he finally had to call the police and threaten to have her arrested if > she didn't leave, or if she returned again. > > But when I go NC? Nothing. > > Also funny that you were " selfish " when you confronted her over being > treated differently because your sister isn't married, doesn't have > kids, lives alone, etc. I was " selfish " when I confronted nada over > being treated differently because I WASN'T married, DIDN'T have kids at > home, lived alone, etc. (and therefore had all the time in the world to > spend on her). > > You're SO right about being right! > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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