Guest guest Posted January 2, 2008 Report Share Posted January 2, 2008 Hi all, I've really enjoyed the recent thread about laughter--I've often found it the best (and not at all unhealthy) way to deal with my nada's absurd tantrums, accusations and requests. When I was leaving the other morning, she threw a completely predictable fit just before I walked out the door--she's always done that, even since I was seven and leaving for camp!, It's her pre-emptive way of hurting me before I can abandon her--and she barricaded herself against the door and insisted I eat breakfast with her and stepdad. I was running late to pick up a friend who was accompanying me on my drive home and Nada had deliberately let me oversleep, she'd said she would wake me up an hour earlier than she did, so I was frantically packing and collecting gifts etc. I made the mistake of letting it slip that I was planning to have breakfast with my friend and her father before leaving town and she flipped out. She stood, blocking the door, and said in her low, scary voice (almost as awful as her shouting!) " We need five good minutes of family time before you leave. The least you can do is eat with us, your family, and you can call your friend and tell her to skip you for breakfast. " At that point, I'd had it with being controlled, entirely, for the previous seven days, so I looked at her calmly and said " Mom, I feel like you're not listening to my needs, my friend is waiting, I'm already very late, I need to go. I love you and thank you for the suggestion, it would be nice, but I need to go now. " Stepdad felt endebted to me for having stuck up for him all week so he foolishly rushed to my aid to try to defend me, she started screaming at us both, began crying, claimed she was afraid it was the last time she was ever going to see me (she had a routine calcium deposit removed from her breast last week and is convinced it's cancer) and practically forced me to sit down at the kitchen table. Anyway, I'm getting too detailed, you can all imagine the rest but the ultimatum at breakfast ended up being: if I didn't eat my (burnt) toast, she wouldn't buy my boyfriend a Christmas gift (she'd promised to send it up belatedly--his parents bought me a $300 art course + materials). On the drive to my friend's house, I called another friend who is well versed in nada's insanity and said " My boyfriend's not getting a gift from mom now because I wouldn't eat toast. " We laughed and laughed and it really helped. Nada's chaos and emptiness can feel so terrifying but as soon as I laugh, I really do feel better. It's like laughing at the boggarts in Harry Potter:) Mike and Cheryl wrote: L, Yes, I laugh a lot also. I have a stressful life in many ways, and the way I get rid of a lot of it is through laughter. However, there are times when I should probably cry when I feel numb instead. Our motions aren't normal a lot of the time, and yes, I once cried more to my therapist than anyone else. I also see that I now have more honest talks with my hubby about how I am feeling, why I am short-tempered or down on myself, and so on. I can see that this is major progress - talking to my husband relieves a lot of the stress, and I am less of a mystery to him if I say, " I'm feeling down on myself because the house is a mess and I have no more energy left to clean today. It's making me grumpy. " The mood tends to dissipate if I talk about it and we usually are laughing by the end of a quick talk. > > > > > > Yes! Exactly! You are not alone. Early on in my therapy, my therapist > > > asked me when the last time I cried was. I was sobbing at the time. I > > > couldn't answer her, because I have been stifiling my tears since I > > > can remember. She actually recommended making myself cry every now > > > and then to get the stress out, but I have never been able to make > > > that happen. Over time I am beter about crying when I feel it. > > > Saying I love you is my sticky one. I can say it to my hubby and > > > kids and that's about it! > > > > > > Cheryl > > > > > > --------------------------------- Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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