Re: OT: out of frustration

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Thank you Jeff,

My profession requires an excellent health history.. I need to keep it quiet

Thank you Marie

To: Lyme_and_Rife Sent: Monday, July 16, 2012 4:36 PMSubject: RE: OT: out of frustration

Hi Marie,

If you go on disability you will have the opportunity to return to work if you’re able to. You can earn a certain amount per year without giving up your disability. I don’t remember the exact amount but I know that it is possible to work and receive disability.

Take care,

Jeff

From: Lyme_and_Rife [mailto:Lyme_and_Rife ] On Behalf Of Marie BenoitSent: Monday, July 16, 2012 1:46 PMTo: Lyme_and_Rife Subject: Re: OT: out of frustration

Thank you Barbara, Jeff, Lena ,

For you kind support . grieving eys but what exactly . Thi sincertaintly of no tknowing when for how long or for godd how much to grive for makes it uneasy for me . Nothing is sure neither

if we stay sick neither if we heal and how much and in ho wmuch time htis is a big thing . I cannot organise accordingly . if I work on the desability for exemple If I will no be able to work again in the future eventhought I become able to .

Kindly Marie

To: Lyme_and_Rife Sent: Sunday, July 15, 2012 8:57 PMSubject: Re: OT: out of frustration

Marie,

i hear you. i understand and know where you are. won't offer any great encouragement because you have heard it all, given it yourself many times. and sometimes encouragement only seems to make it harder, more frustrating, almost angry because it feels like no one understands. as we sit in that 'hole' and grieve we cannot digest the encouragement to 'hang in there'. we don't want/cant handle being cheered up. david, in the psalms was there many times. been there many times myself.

give yourself the grieving time for your loss(es). it's ok. i know you know that the lord is there as you grieve, holding you. i have often envisioned myself sitting on his lap as a child as he held me. as he is holding you now. it is in times like these, when we are feeling so very hopeless, that he is actually the closest to us. stay there, with him, in your grieving, until you feel his comfort and peace.

but for now, allow yourself to grieve, rest in him and allow him to hold you.

barbara

Hi Marie,

I realize that it’s not going to change your level of frustration but I think that most of us Lymies are constantly going through the same dance. Feel better for a short time, feel worse for longer time and on and on. I know for me anything that seems to work is only temporary and then it’s on to the next thing. For years my worst symptom was chronic back pain and if anything did help with the pain the effects would diminish before long and I would have to try something else until that didn’t help and I would switch again. I’m finding the same thing with supplements now, except I still haven’t seen much improvement in the brain fog. MMS has helped with fatigue a great deal but not so much with the constant fog I’m in.

You’ve been through so much already but you can’t allow the disease to win. Just keep fighting and unfortunately the frustration will keep coming also.

Take care,

Jeff

From: Lyme_and_Rife [mailto:Lyme_and_Rife ] On Behalf Of Marie BenoitSent: Saturday, July 14, 2012 2:06 PMTo: lyme_and_rife Subject: OT: out of frustration

Hi Everyonne ,

I am piling up frustration as I pile up the treatment and gets nowhere except temporary releive.

It makes me feels like a gynee pig in tis weel .. in hi scage running faster and faster as the wheel .

Speding my time in treatments after two years is not acceptable to me patience needs to give place to censible decision and thinking .

10 seconds of rife the second year f riffing i tis nto good .

S

So I make a list of everyhting that has been doin gsome good to me to see what I can do with it in a diffrent way .

One of theses treatment I had a good result bu ttmporary is the KIB 500. I was much better for 2 weeks then th ebenefit beganto decline until on emonth and half after it was gone .

it was quite remarquable what it di dto me and I dropped it because it was temporary . But when I compare to any other treatment everythign is temporary and if we stopp it we go back into our misery, rife , MMS, silver , ozone , abx, andthis did much mor ein one series than anyother did for me that I can afford . So I think it is not sensible to rule otu this because it is knew

and temporary when everything else need much more time of use to give its result ansthis one gave me on one serie a much better outcome than anything else in the same time . And a sensible approach would be to do it at least as long as antibiody and alittl ebi tmore as it is not wellknown .

Here is my thought . And I am going to pass everything I have been doing like this thinking of it in a different perspective . I hope I will be able to open the door of this prison like desease .

Kindly Marie