confronting dad - sorry so long

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Oh where to start. I havent posted for some time as I been distracitng

my self with little projects and work, etc. Nada is long gone, left Dad

about 15 years ago. However bad memories remain that i cant get away

from. I was diagnosed with complex PTSD - (caused by nadas abuse)and

some months ago did try to broach the subject with Dad about the child

abuse and how relatives had trivialized and denied the incidents. Only

to be met with more rejection and the " your mother " blah blah, and

criticized for complaining yet again for how much I suffered.

So I swallowed my feelings again like so many times before because they

never mattered anyhow. Just gratefull that a least i confonted him. Got

on with my life and maintained kind of a relationship with Dad

everything smooth. Then a couple weeks ago there was an incident at

work with this woman who is BPD type. It brought back alot of bad

feelings about my own nada. Well had enough. Complex PTSD is a whole

other subject for another thread. But I took it upon myself to confront

original source of distress directly.

So I sent my dad an email about the horrific things nada did to me and

how he did nothing to get me away from it. I also put in some shots at

how relatives would not take the abuse seriously. Specfically a time

when nada broke my wrist, I went to his Aunt in tears about this. Then

I caught this same Aunt laughing with my Dad about it over a year

later. That hurt bad and i let him know it.

It's been over a week now and he has not responded. I love my dad and

we had a wonderfull relationship but he would just not see what was

going on before his very eyes. It hurts.

Thanks for listening, Tina