Guest guest Posted June 22, 2008 Report Share Posted June 22, 2008 I stopped posting on this board (plain old exhausted) following a HUGE Nada occurance beginning/mid May where Nada came to stay at her 2nd exhusbands house (my step dad's place) 4 miles from my house. She was there for 15 days (was supposed to be 4). That was following a previous 10 day stay (and accompanying blow up) in April. She's been doing this for years but lately it's just gotten MUCH worse. Nada's been " back " since Tuesday... leaving next Tuesday. Same drama but I'm MIRACULOUSLY (know it's therapy working) disengaged... now the " tales from the front " don't hit me anymore... I'm through the 'feeling' part of all this... Her 'spiral' that I referred to has been via phone (with message updates almost on the hour - notice I didn't say I actually take these calls nor do I listen to 99% of the messages)... Hope this helps clarify my orinigal post. Dreamin' for a " HappyRock " moment... Lynnette > > Hi all... I'm back after taking a " leave " ... > > After being gone from here for a bit (following Nada's last 15 day > trip 'to town' that sent me over the water-fall of emotional > implosion) I've decided to poke my head up out of the cliff to share... > > Nada is spiraling. Last Thur's therapy session was about her behavior > (manic highs/ suicidal lows - all within hours of eachother) and my > FREEDOM FROM GUILT over being able to fix it. A-men to that... the > guilts are gone!!! However, I'm afraid she's going to kill herself. > Afraid isn't really the right word... Therapist asked, " what would it > look like if your mom actually did it? " My response, " well, I think > I'd be sad but I could rest... she's been miserable most of her life > and I really want her to be at peace... maybe suicide will do that... > and if she, as the Buddists believe, comes back - maybe as a rock - > maybe she'd be a really HAPPY rock... " . Took me almost 40 years to > get " there " ... > > > I love her and always will but I'm not able to fix her life for her. > I'm not able to fix her perceptions of her " ruined " life for her. She > has to do it... or not. It's her choice. > > When I'm feeling less " something " , I'll share the latest of " nutty " > behavior... it involves the Buddists, two gay Dr's in N.Cal., identity > theft, a music festival, a " supposed therapist that wasn't " who is > offering her " back door access " to a university (????) and a garage > sale... (when I explained this to MY therapist she sat back, closed > her eyes, pressed her temples to her head and said, " geez... even I'm > worn out just hearing this.... " . > > Party on. > > Lynnette > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 22, 2008 Report Share Posted June 22, 2008 Hey, Chick good to hear from you. Just more instanity from the trenches. Hang in there. TIMELINE CLARIFICATION: I stopped posting on this board (plain old exhausted) following a HUGE Nada occurance beginning/mid May where Nada came to stay at her 2nd exhusbands house (my step dad's place) 4 miles from my house. She was there for 15 days (was supposed to be 4). That was following a previous 10 day stay (and accompanying blow up) in April. She's been doing this for years but lately it's just gotten MUCH worse. Nada's been " back " since Tuesday... leaving next Tuesday. Same drama but I'm MIRACULOUSLY (know it's therapy working) disengaged.. . now the " tales from the front " don't hit me anymore... I'm through the 'feeling' part of all this... Her 'spiral' that I referred to has been via phone (with message updates almost on the hour - notice I didn't say I actually take these calls nor do I listen to 99% of the messages)... Hope this helps clarify my orinigal post. Dreamin' for a " HappyRock " moment... Lynnette > > Hi all... I'm back after taking a " leave " ... > > After being gone from here for a bit (following Nada's last 15 day > trip 'to town' that sent me over the water-fall of emotional > implosion) I've decided to poke my head up out of the cliff to share... > > Nada is spiraling. Last Thur's therapy session was about her behavior > (manic highs/ suicidal lows - all within hours of eachother) and my > FREEDOM FROM GUILT over being able to fix it. A-men to that... the > guilts are gone!!! However, I'm afraid she's going to kill herself. > Afraid isn't really the right word... Therapist asked, " what would it > look like if your mom actually did it? " My response, " well, I think > I'd be sad but I could rest... she's been miserable most of her life > and I really want her to be at peace... maybe suicide will do that... > and if she, as the Buddists believe, comes back - maybe as a rock - > maybe she'd be a really HAPPY rock... " . Took me almost 40 years to > get " there " ... > > > I love her and always will but I'm not able to fix her life for her. > I'm not able to fix her perceptions of her " ruined " life for her. She > has to do it... or not. It's her choice. > > When I'm feeling less " something " , I'll share the latest of " nutty " > behavior.... it involves the Buddists, two gay Dr's in N.Cal., identity > theft, a music festival, a " supposed therapist that wasn't " who is > offering her " back door access " to a university (????) and a garage > sale.... (when I explained this to MY therapist she sat back, closed > her eyes, pressed her temples to her head and said, " geez... even I'm > worn out just hearing this.... " . > > Party on. > > Lynnette > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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