Guest guest Posted January 3, 2008 Report Share Posted January 3, 2008 Hi guys, I hope you had a nice holiday! I feel like I really stood up for myself last night with nada and my grandparents. I feel like I'm really getting a grasp on all of this. I went to my grandparents' house last night after I got off work because they had invited me over for dinner. We had a nice time, even after nada walked over (she lives in the house next door to them that they bought and renovated for her). After dinner though, nada starts in on how she needs my help ALL WEEKEND in moving everything from her old house to her new one. I told her that I would help her Friday as I had already agreed to, but that I would not be helping her all weekend. My fiance' and I have plans for just the two of us on Monday, and I want to have a nice weekend after working almost all week since the new year began and enjoy the last few days before school begins again. Well, nada was NOT HAPPY about this. She insisted that most of the stuff in her old house is mine (not true!) and she needs my help. I told her that I understood what she was saying, but I disagreed, and considering I had moved myself into my apartment in August without her help, most of my things were already out of her old house and I would only be able to help on Friday. She began yelling at my grandfather, demanding that he step in and tell me how ungrateful I am. He told me I had too much of a " me " attitude and I needed to help my mother move. I pointed out that she has been in her house for almost 6 months now and has had plenty of time to move her things. I restated that I would help her Friday as promised, but I would not spend my entire weekend off work helping her. When he continued, I said, " I am not going to help someone who has been emotionally and verbally abusive to me. I am 20 years old, and I am not obligated to put myself in a bad position. " This erupted into a huge fight. My grandparents eventually " took my side " so to speak, which only made nada angrier. I found out, among other things, she was able to obtain a copy of my credit report (how she did this, I have no idea but I surely would like to know) and told my grandparents I took out a loan and gave the money to my fiance'. ?!?!? I told them I did NOT take out the loan to help him out, but I did it so I could begin to build a good credit rating, and that even if I had taken it out to help my fiance', it wouldn't be anyone's business but ours. I know I lost my cool and didn't follow SWOE's suggestions very well, but it felt like a big milestone for me. I kept repeating that as far as my grades, financial aid, etc. are concerned, nada is more than welcome to ask me about them, but I am not legally obligated to provide her with that information and her threats to call my university are unfounded because they will deny her the access because I'm over 18. Most importantly, after the madness was finally over, nada asked for me to spend the night at her house with either her there or her at my grandparents' house. I told her, " I love you, and I understand you feel it would be best for me not to drive to my apartment this late and with me being upset. However, I assure you that I am OK to drive and I think this is best because I have work tomorrow and we both need to get some sleep and calm down. If you would like to address this later when we have both calmed down, we can, but tonight I need to focus on getting the most rest I can since I will be on my feet all day tomorrow. I will see you on Friday. " She kept arguing and normally I would have caved in, but I didn't and drove to my apartment. My grandmother called me later to make sure I had made it in. She was crying and apologized to me because she feels like she and my grandfather should have forced nada to get help, etc. I told her about BPD and that I and my therapist suspect it's what nada has. I told her we could not force her to change herself because it has to be something she wants to do, but that we could change how we react to her. I told her about SWOE and said that I would loan it to her after I finish re-reading it. She thinks that I'm with my fiance' because of my nada, which is B.S. I told her she was entitled to believe that but that I strongly disagreed and that she and my grandfather should be more concerned about my mother than about my relationship with a man who, while he has " baggage " (I hate that word), cares deeply about me and my well-being. I think I handled last night as best as I could at this point in my detachment from this entirely bizarre and enmeshed situation. I've asked my fiance' to read the chapter on SWOE about protecting children of BPs. While it doesn't apply to me completely as I'm too old for the suggestions, the main reason why I want him to read it is I think it does a good job of explaining how growing up with a BP parent affects a non-BP kid, even after they're an adult. I didn't even realize how accurately it described me (lack of trust, setting up tests, etc.) until reading it. I think I'll bring it up to my therapist at our next session because I believe it will improve me and my fiance's relationship. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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