Depression and Anger, normal?

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i found out about BPD about a month ago, and ive already made a lot of

progress with the books im reading and this forum. but lately i have

been having dramatic mood swings. sometimes i have bad depression that

i cant control (i even started randomly crying in a public place).

other times within a second's time and with no warning i will just feel

so angry. like this anger will just come out of nowhere and i really

feel it come from inside me. and other times i will be completely fine

and normal. and i never know when i will feel like that. normally i can

control my moods pretty well, if im sad i can snap out of it, if im

angry i can calm myself down.

im going to get professional help for this obviously, but besides that

im just wondering if these mood swings could be from finding out about

BPD and remembering all the things that happened to me or realizing

that some of the things that went on with my childhood were really bad.

i guess what im asking is could the mood swings be from dealing with

all this and bringing everything out from my subconcious? did anyone

else experience this when they first learned about the disorder?