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Hi all

I joined this group a week or so ago but haven't got around to introducing

myself. I was a bit down.

I have symptoms of sciatica/back/leg/foot pain. I thought it was sciatica

but apparently not showing the classic signs. I have had an epidural/steroid

in the spine, which didn't ease the pain at all. I had an MRI scan and L4

and L5 are not good. I think that is the right numbers. I have the report

somewhere but just can't lay my hand on it for now. I had been having

trouble with my back for a few years on and off, which I had forgotten

about. You know, Get on with life after the pain went. I was offered an op

but decided against it as the odds were not good and of course it could of

made it worse. Better the devil you know. I bought a wee mobility scooter

that I can get in the boot (trunk) of the car. I lift the front wheels and

rest it on the car, on a blanket, and then heave the back up. Lifting is not

my problem. Walking or standing upright.

I have had this severe pain since June 2006. My husband passed away suddenly

2 months before so as you can imagine things have not been too good. BUT I

am a happy person and do try to live and get on with things. I used to live

in Scotland (30 years) but I moved to the south of England, where I was born

and in with my mother. Me! 52 and moving back with mum! but it has been

wonderful. My husband, ,and I had often spoken about if he went before

me, as he was 15 years older and not in the best of health. We thought that

I would move south to one of our 2 boys but never thought I would be here. I

still marvel where life takes you. I am with my family and my boys are not

to far either.

Oh forgot to say, change of life ladies too. lol. I don't do things easy do

I? But for the most part I am content with life. I do have my times of

depression which I don't know whether to blame on grief, hormones or pain!

But I know that I will get better in a day or too.

I am under 'Pain Management' but that is a laugh. I had to nag and nag to

get seen and then they just gave me some tablets and more or less say 'get

on with it.'As I was passed to the orthopaedic dept, I had to go to the

bottom of the list again to see the pain management. I got an appointment

for the end of Feb. I have now excepted that I will have this pain for the

rest of my days. I can still do all my crafts and I don't really want to run

a marathon anyway so....

I do tend to keep things to myself I don't want to upset mum. She gets

really upset if I am upset over and as he was my best friend, who I

could talk to about anything, that is what I am missing so much. I try and

think about what he would say to this pain and then I pull myself up and get

on with living. Of course friends don't want to keep listening about pain

and grief. I am usually a gregarious persont the moment I am content with my

own company. I have joined the Adult college and am earning new crafts and

the piano so I do get out and about. mum takes me shopping too....lol

Anyway, hope I haven't bored you and am glad I found you even though none of

use want to be here.

Here's hoping for an easer day tomorrow

Take care

Berenice