Guest guest Posted January 7, 2008 Report Share Posted January 7, 2008 A big revelation when I started to learn about BPD, was the concept of healthy boundaries. I did NOT have healthy boundaries with my nada/fada, nor with many others. It really shocked me. Applying this lesson has been ongoing and trying to find a middle ground has not been easy. I've become hyper-sensitized to boundaries and perhaps guilty of over-defending myself. Each time I come across a lapsed boundary from my past I overreact. (There are just sooo many disrespectful behaviors that I should not have accepted from others. It's disorienting to notice them... and it's not easy trying to make up for lost time.) This has been made all the harder by everyone's memory of me as a pushover... it's extremely difficult to undo a first impression. Here's one recent example: For 25 years now, my mother-in-law has refused to accept that I kept my maiden name. When she sends me mail it's always addressed with my husband's last name. For my birthday this year, she sent me a check made out to me, but again, with her family name. Whenever she does this it feels like a gift with a mixed message. I've put up with her petty zings for years — this time the bank won't accept it & neither will I. It's a little thing, but just one more example of not setting a boundary. I don't want " gifts " that come with a pointed, angry message. I know she has never accepted my decision & she thinks it's OK to disrespect me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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