Guest guest Posted January 6, 2008 Report Share Posted January 6, 2008 I have had SOOO many terrible vivid nada/ step dad dreams since returning from home last week. In one, I dreamt she was brutally murdered and the killer was still lurking in the basement. I wept and wept (but I don't think that means I was sad, death rarely means death in dreams, it often has more to do with letting go of an issue you can't control!) I had one last night, it was one of the worst I've had in awhile. In it, our neighbors had strung up banners in our trees with nada's offenses written in green and red (she's been stirring up trouble in our town lately). She'd awoken to find the banners and called some neighbors and family friends at 3 am (I distinctly remember being so embarassed that she'd woken people up so early!) and they formed a parade and marched to our house in the pitch dark, they showed up with a circus and popcorn and nada was totally delighted but one of them women whispered to me that they were having her taken to a psych ward and it was her last hurrah before being sent away. It was so vivid! Her eyes were so crazy and delighted, child-like, as she danced to a band they'd hired and I cried. I think dreams like those are very cathartic for our poor little brains trying to cope with ongoing (or in my case recent) trauma. drlingirl wrote: Dreams are great.....I work through alot of stuff in my dreams. Funny how I seem so much braver in them too :0) I have told her off many times in my dreams. Once I dreamt that she died. I woke up crying....which surprised the hell out of me. I guess I do love her??? Not feeling the love much lately though. Happy dreams tonight Mr.Z!!! drlingirl > > > > > > > > > > Hello everyone. > > > > > I have been NC with NADA since November 15th. When i stopped > > > > talking > > > > > to her, I didn't plan on being NC forever. But when I went NC > > i > > > > > didn't give her any reasons for doing so. she hung up the > > phone > > > on > > > > me > > > > > one day, and i haven't called her since. and she would rather > > die > > > > > than " make the first move " and call me. > > > > > Eventually in the near future i would like to talk to her > > again. > > > > But > > > > > seeing as there will be no " reasoning " with her, i don't know > > how > > > > to > > > > > do it. I thought about writing a letter telling her how I > feel > > > > about > > > > > everything...ive never told her about how i felt about her as > > a > > > > mom > > > > > or anything like what i talk about on the boards here. > > > > > ive written my mother several letters over the years, mostly > > when > > > > i > > > > > was younger and still living at home as a child. i would > write > > > her > > > > > letters of remore and apology for being such a bad kid, and > > how > > > > sorry > > > > > i was for doing wrong. she loved those letters, and saved all > > of > > > > > them. if i write this letter and send it to her, before she > > opens > > > > it > > > > > she will expect it to be another apology letter like she used > > to > > > > get > > > > > from me. but it wont be, and i don't know how she will react > > to > > > > it. > > > > > > > > > > i don't know where to go from here. i plan on talking to my > > > > therapist > > > > > about this before i take action. but i don't know how to word > > > > > anything if i decide to write it. > > > > > > > > > > have any of you wrote similar letters to your NADA's or > > FADA's? > > > > Can > > > > > you give me examples of what you wrote and how you wrote it? > > > > > > > > > > Should I just leave things the way they are and not worry > > about > > > > > telling her anything? > > > > > > > > > > Any advice is appreciated. You all help me so much....and > this > > > > board > > > > > has been the biggest help for me getting through all this > with > > my > > > > > mom. Thank you so much. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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