Guest guest Posted January 5, 2008 Report Share Posted January 5, 2008 Hello Everyone, I have felt like doing the same thing my father did, throw in the towel, but is that the solution, mabe for my self. because Like a lot of us the fight, battle, or what ever it may be, we end it, but we so sorrowly leave behind our family's, friends, if we have any left. We leave behind people who care about us and some very deeply, trade places, I've had to latley, re-feel the abandoment issues of what my father did, when he threw in the towel. I was told in 1992 when he died, that it was because of his diabetes complications. Until just over 1 yr ago, I found out he shot him self, w/my mothers gun. I've come to realize it was so tragic for her, and many other feelings that go hand in hand w/death. She was mad, hurt, scared, loneley, and most of all, she lost the love of her life, whom always took control. She'd never paid the bills, he did the shopping up till the end, but he didn't want to be a burden on her any more. Just think for a moment if someone you loved commited suicide, would you feel relieved that you didn't have to care for them anymore, or would you feel all the feelings that go hand in hand, by loosing someone by natural causes? So when I feel like throwing in the towel, I have to think about whom I leave behind, the heartache they will feel. My children, how devestating, my spouse. He hurts for me now, just watchin me struggle every day, and I fight it. So if or when anyone of you feel like throwing in the towel, remember you are loved more than you know. I appologize for the legnth of this message, but I care about all of you or I wouldn't still be in this group of wonderful people that I care about to call my family, and friends. So keep living your life, cause they come up w/cures, meds, and all sorts of things to help us all live a better life. Bless each and everyone of you, even our very knowledgable moderators that help lift us up, dirrect us to sites that are so helpful. Please love yourselves no matter how hard it is sometimes. Sincerily, Connie Byrns Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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