A fantasy.....does it make me a bad person???

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Hello all,

I have a fantasy and I need to know that I'm not alone. Despite my

chronic pain, I'm the type of person who's optimistic, outgoing (not

as much physically..), and I have a sense of humor. Because of this,

many people in my life don't consider my pain, depression, and chronic

illness very often.

When I'm absolutely cannot function, or when I'm

feeling beat-up, tired of the torture and ready to lose my mind, these

same people look at me with their heads cocked to one side like my

doggies do when I talk to them. THEN they say something like " You'll

be ok...you don't SEEM like your feeling that bad. " Believe me, they

don't WANT me to SEEM the way I'm feeling!!!!

So, my fantasy is that

I could snap my finger or do a jedi mind-trick and only for a few

seconds make them feel exactly what I'm feeling. Most people are used

to occasionally having to suck it up and go on through the day when

they don't feel well. They have NO IDEA how it is for us, whom have

to do this and more every second of every single day. It's not just a

little headache or a small stomach ache or watery eyes.

If those of

us with chronic pain did only what we felt like doing, I don't think

most of us would ever get out of bed. I WANT MY PAT ON THE BACK!!!!!

NOT someone telling me it's not that bad. It IS that bad!!! That's why

we're on so many meds. That's why everyday is a tooth-and-nail fight

for us. If only we could share our pain in a very real way....if only.

Mojo