Why Do I Let Her Still Get To ME???!

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I haven't spoken to my mother since December 26th. This is the second

no contact attempt. Last year I attempted to patch things up with her

but of course it proved unsuccessful. Today, I receive the following

email:

" KATIE,

I FIND TODAY AN APPROPRIATE TIME TO SEND THIS TO YOU.

I AM NOT WRITING THIS ON YOUR BEHALF BUT MINE, I NEED TO FIND

PEACE WITHIN MYSELF. I EXPECT NO PHONE CALL AND NO REPLY.

I STILL SEE A GLIMPSE OF US AND HOW IT USE TO BE, BUT THAT WAS

JUST A PART OF THE PASSING THROUGH.

I WILL NEVER BE MADE TO FEEL ASHAMED OR GUILTY AGAIN.

YOU NEED TO FIND THE MEANING OF TWO WORDS -- FAMILY AND

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. LOVING SOMEONE FOR WHO THEY ARE BUT MORE IMPORTANT

FOR WHO THEY ARE NOT.

I HAVE ONE MORE THING TO SAY; BECAUSE OF WHO I AM; YOU HAVE THE LIFE

YOU HAVE.

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

I WISH YOU A WONDERFUL LIFE.

TAKE CARE.

SHARON "

Once again I find myself broken - the guilt comes back, all the

strength I have been able to build up over the last several months is

gone.... I have the life I have because it's MY life and I've worked

for the things I have and I've made MY own decisions and lived MY own

life! I don't have the life I do because of her!!