I stayed with anxiety, looked in deep and found something

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I was with some anxiety. I looked in deeply. I have noticed lately that where there is panic, anxiety, there is a deep urge to cry that doesn't surface but I feel it, its like round my sinus area (wonder if that is why I have chronic sinusitis). in ACT you are encouraged to treat your pain and fear like a child. The thing is, when I looked in deep into my pain, I have actually discovered a child. A poor innocent crying in fear, it was me, it was me as a child. And my first urge was of guilt, this child has been crying for years and all I have done is found ways to turn my back on her! I felt the need to hug,to kneel down at her level,and I actually talked out loud as I soothed this crying child and cried myself. I felt like I was the grownup, and this unattended pain and fear the child. It was

a painful and emotional experience, not too long, but Its still there, I can feel it with me. My poor darling me that is still a child, I will be there for you. This time I will.______________________Signature: Mrs Em Equanimity This is my personal blog where I record my experience applying Acceptance Commitment Therapy to my anxiety and agoraphobia in particular, and my life in general. Feel free to browse. http://eyeofthehurricane-act.blogspot.com/