Re: Re: High BG when don't eat?

[Guest guest]

Major snippage:

So... I know you all deal with diabetes daily and that is the focus of

the

list... but I'm interested in knowing how you deal with the emotional

aspects of it too.

Anne

I also have been overweight since, gosh, since I can remember. I never

truly became what was considered my " ideal " weight, despite trying a few

times. I had gestational diabetes at 36, and was warned to watch my

eating habits, etc. After the pregnancy (and with insulin and following

rigid eating plan my daughter was born 6 lbs 4 oz - yayayayayay!) I

developed hypothyroidism. 2 years ago, I was DXd with diabetes.

I did well with the meds (2 diabetes, 1 thyroid, 1 for triglycerides)

for about a year. Then I started forgetting to take them. I began to eat

what I wanted when I wanted. It boiled down to " to h**l with this, I'm

tired of doing this! " I didn't care. Unfortunately, even tho I now take

my meds on time (almost always) I still don't care. I had a yeast

infection in my right armpit 2 months ago, my fasting sugars range

anywhere from 120 to 275 when I test, I've given up testing after meals.

My eyesight is blurry, I have microanyurisms in my right eye, I may have

gastropariesis (I have some symptoms, but no-one takes them seriously,

and I still don't care. I have all the factors leading to heart disease

- overweight, family history (both side), sedentary, smoker & diabetes.

I still don't care. I know what can happen to me. I know I can lose my

sight, my limbs, my life.

I've been subscribed to this list for at least 8 months, and belong to

alt.support.diabetes and misc.health.diabetes. I read almost every post

on this list, except those pertaining to insulin, altho I haven't opened

the other two in a couple of months. I silently cheer on those who are

getting ahead in this battle, and commiserate with those who are having

trying times.

I want to take care of myself, I want to see my 10 year old daughter

grow up, I want to live - but I can't generate the energy to fight. It's

not important to me. I have an appointment next Friday for blood work

results. I may have to ask the dr for antidepressants, because that

seems to be the only thing I can think of that is causing this soul

lethargy. (I know, get my bg under control and exercise, I'll feel like

a whole n'other woman!!)

I'm sorry, this post wasn't meant to be a vent, and I really don't want

anyone to spank me. I know the things I have to do - I am intelligent

and do think about it. Perhaps the next time I come out of lurk mode

I'll have been on medication and my whole attitude will have changed.

We'll see.

Debbie Ames