finding it hard

[Guest guest]

Hi

My name is Neil and I am new to this group. I was recommended ACT by a

counsellor I once saw and although it was a while ago I'm just getting around to

using it but I must admit I'm find it hard to defuse my thoughts. I've only

been using it for a few days but as I am an impatient person anyway I'm being

hard on myself because I'm not seeing much results yet.

I know its not designed to make me feel better or get rid of the thoughts but to

'distance' myself from my negative thoughts, i guess it will take time and a bit

of persistence to release myself from this constant negativity.

I have had a bit of a hard last 3 years since I moved to England from Scotland

to be with my partner. I come from a very rural area in Scotland and was thrust

in to Birmingham city centre, at first it was fun but once the reality had set

in that this was my new home I didnt take to it very well.

We now stay in Stourbridge which is a lot nicer than Birmingham city centre but

I have seriously struggled with work since I moved here and havent held down a

full time job for 3 years. I have been working part time but now I am unemployed

and looking for work which is scaring me as all my negative thoughts from

previous bad experiences from work are coming flooding back. I did start a job

last week but I only lasted 3 days as I was put under a fair bit of pressure and

I couldnt handle it. My partner and I are going to move to Scotland possibly

next year but at the moment the only job I can really get is driving Forklift

trucks in an industrial environment where the atmosphere and general feeling

tends to be hostile which I absolutley hate! The only thing that keeps me going

is knowing we are going to move to Scotland next year as I feel it is my home up

there, I feel confident and relaxed there.

Anyway enough of my rambling on, I would love to meet up with or chat to any

other sufferers out there who can understand my situation.

Neil from Stourbridge.