Guest guest Posted October 22, 2011 Report Share Posted October 22, 2011 I felt overwhewlmed by recent experiences and saw that I had an enormous battle ahead. But I was ready for it and I put out a very powerful post yesterday saying that the only way out is through (well at least for me). The post dissapeared somewhere, fortunately. Today, though, I wasn't so overwhelmed with anger at my fate and I realised that this week I had become too entangled with my suffering. It is easy to sit here and think this is such a momentious task and but I'm ready for the fight (which I am). Then I look at my past and wonder how did all this happen when other people find life so much easier. The pain then builds up and up as my fearful determination increases. But just don't dwell on it seems to be the best advice for me right now. Today I am allowing the pain to be but getting on with things like playing my guitar and keyboards. But then I feel how can I try again only to fail and suffer as usual. Then I realise this is attachment also. So. back to my musical instruments, and tonight, down the pub with my lovely girlfriend for 3 pints of Huntman's Royal Oak. (my night off from some of the pain for a bit) (Oh! and I will be playing the F*ck Buttons in the car loud on the way over to her and it's amazing. And I love driving too). So, some good things to look forward to. All the best. Kv Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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