Guest guest Posted July 6, 2011 Report Share Posted July 6, 2011 I did it!!!! I have to tell you, that willingness is stronger than any thought or emotion. There was a lot of anticipatory anxiety leading up based on thoughts of what might happen, but I decided that I was willing to feel anything that came up in the moment, and just took it one moment at a time. There were moments of heightened intensity, along the way, but I just sat with it, breathed, and felt a sense of peace knowing that this was the only moment that mattered, and that ultimately, if I had a panic attack, that it was out of my control, as the best I can do is to use the techniques to prevent one. On the way back, as luck would have it, I had major anxiety and fear about getting stuck again in ville, like the first time where it all started. Was snowballing, but again, willingness to experience it, prevailed. Truly a tin can monster On a side note, I saw that this discussion ensued after I left, and it brought me to tears. Thank you all for being so kind and accepting towards my predicament. Much of the fears I experience, is being held together by the fear of what people would think, judgment, rejection, based also on early childhood. Sometimes I think suffering is here to teach us to let go, to be compassionate, emphatic, to love and care for ourselves and others. Can be a gift. Best Planes are just another method of transportation, nothing more nothing less. Oh, and a bit quicker Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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