Learning what I'm Actually Avoiding

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Hello fellow Actors,Yesterday, I was planning to attend a Sunday service at a Unitarian-Universalist church for the first time. I wanted to attend out of curiosity but also to possibly expand my social support, since research has shown that it is an important factor for physical and mental health. Indeed, my social life has become severely restricted to just my family.

Unfortunately, I decided to remain home instead because I was still avoiding something that I didn't knew what specifically. But now I know! It is the avoidance of receiving evaluations (especially critical ones) from others and of feeling the discomfort or distress from them. I was avoiding the church not only because I was avoiding all the worries about what people would think of me. I was keeping myself away from just being in contact with people's judgements of me and how that would feel for me