Guest guest Posted February 4, 2012 Report Share Posted February 4, 2012 Lou, appreciate your words and having a look at the blog.I have felt distaste towards religion at times. I have blamed it as being a major force in a past that was lived mostly sheltered. Yet I am coming to realize that I always simply responded to conditions in the only way I knew how. Religion, or more specifically certain elements of religion, is really only one aspect of the world that is life-denying. Coercion and rules that dominate according to the dictates of a god, or a dictator, or a political party, rob us of the gift of freedom of choice. Life itself, as I am learning, is so abundantly rich in meaning, in wonder, in spirit, that all our human efforts to indoctrinate fail miserably. Our greatest book is the book of life; and it certainly is not pleasant reading a lot of the time! Yet I'm learning that the greatest attitude to life is accepting it as it is; and as I do I see all the layers of control strategies in place that I've been using to manipulate it. , Thanks for this very interesting post. I really enjoyed your blog, from the Dabrowski to `Closer' by Nine Inch Nails. Lots of interesting stuff. I found your journey with religion very interesting. Seems like you experienced it as a major constraint in the end, too many rules? You know in that moment when you are taking your last breath and that stillness envelops you, there is nothing left but body and even that is felt superficially. All the mind can see/know is the molecular organism and how it is reacting to the flow of air being consumed. At that level there is no right or wrong, there are no rules. Once you have experienced your body under those circumstances, your awareness of physical sensation is enhanced. Sex becomes a new experience and leads to a path of self-discovery. Sure the `Closer' song does it but not all the time. The craving is for intimate sex with a partner who you share love and respect for. You seem to be angry with the concept of faith. I wonder if that concept could be expanded to the philosophy outside the meaning held in religion. I do think faith is important for us to know/experience but I don't think it has to be understood solely in a religious context. You kept me busy for a long time today :-) With Regard, Lou > > i posted this on my blog the other day. it is very act inspired. i > hope you enjoy it. > > ---------- > i spent a large portion of my life in damage control. > > trying to determine what was wrong with me, and how i could be fixed. > > i essentially believed i was broken, in need of repair; > and is it any wonder, considering the messages i received from childhood? > > eccentricity is rewarded with spite; > the odd child is kicked, beaten, ridiculed, and scorned. > > so i was petrified, i hid away from the world, it was a terrible place. > > and became ever so familiar with my cave. > > but a gnawing ache filled my soul; > i could not stand my solitude, and felt like there was so much more > outside the cave. > > venturing out, i felt struck by the immensity of the pain > and damage from yesteryear. > > so my quest was for repair; > my sole focus was for healing. > > yet like a mirage, i could find no relief; > like a carrot dangling on a stick in front of me, i found no joy. > > it wasn't until i let go of the angst, > let go of the struggle to be well, > let go of the need to feel better, > that i actually started to experience life. > > i realized that it's not about trying to feel a certain way; > and like a friend reminded me, it's not about controlling other > people's opinion of me. > i had to find my own path, > the things i love, > the things i value. > > i had to create me from the ground up, > for no-one was going to do that for me. > > the more i found my joy in things like music, > the more i realized my sense of wellbeing. > > and when you are not dominated by the opinions of others, > like a wise sage has said, > you come to experience your true freedom. > > yet you can only do this when you love your life, > and you love it because you have things you love, > and people you love, > and experiences you love. > > let go of the need to please; > and be free to be what you want to be. > --------- > From http://3dgeofsanity.wordpress.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2012 Report Share Posted February 5, 2012 Fantastic blog . Very inspiring. Thanks for sharing it with usSent from my iPhone To be honest , I feel the need more to digest you than respond to you. I really loved your blog. Like I said, thats a very interesting jouney you've lived. I look forward to your future posts...blogs... With curiosity and desire/warmth, To: ACT_for_the_Public Sent: Saturday, 4 February 2012 6:59 PM Subject: Re: Re: damage control Lou, appreciate your words and having a look at the blog.I have felt distaste towards religion at times. I have blamed it as being a major force in a past that was lived mostly sheltered. Yet I am coming to realize that I always simply responded to conditions in the only way I knew how. Religion, or more specifically certain elements of religion, is really only one aspect of the world that is life-denying. Coercion and rules that dominate according to the dictates of a god, or a dictator, or a political party, rob us of the gift of freedom of choice. Life itself, as I am learning, is so abundantly rich in meaning, in wonder, in spirit, that all our human efforts to indoctrinate fail miserably. Our greatest book is the book of life; and it certainly is not pleasant reading a lot of the time! Yet I'm learning that the greatest attitude to life is accepting it as it is; and as I do I see all the layers of control strategies in place that I've been using to manipulate it. , Thanks for this very interesting post. I really enjoyed your blog, from the Dabrowski to `Closer' by Nine Inch Nails. Lots of interesting stuff. I found your journey with religion very interesting. Seems like you experienced it as a major constraint in the end, too many rules? You know in that moment when you are taking your last breath and that stillness envelops you, there is nothing left but body and even that is felt superficially. All the mind can see/know is the molecular organism and how it is reacting to the flow of air being consumed. At that level there is no right or wrong, there are no rules. Once you have experienced your body under those circumstances, your awareness of physical sensation is enhanced. Sex becomes a new experience and leads to a path of self-discovery. Sure the `Closer' song does it but not all the time. The craving is for intimate sex with a partner who you share love and respect for. You seem to be angry with the concept of faith. I wonder if that concept could be expanded to the philosophy outside the meaning held in religion. I do think faith is important for us to know/experience but I don't think it has to be understood solely in a religious context. You kept me busy for a long time today :-) With Regard, Lou > > i posted this on my blog the other day. it is very act inspired. i > hope you enjoy it. > > ---------- > i spent a large portion of my life in damage control. > > trying to determine what was wrong with me, and how i could be fixed. > > i essentially believed i was broken, in need of repair; > and is it any wonder, considering the messages i received from childhood? > > eccentricity is rewarded with spite; > the odd child is kicked, beaten, ridiculed, and scorned. > > so i was petrified, i hid away from the world, it was a terrible place. > > and became ever so familiar with my cave. > > but a gnawing ache filled my soul; > i could not stand my solitude, and felt like there was so much more > outside the cave. > > venturing out, i felt struck by the immensity of the pain > and damage from yesteryear. > > so my quest was for repair; > my sole focus was for healing. > > yet like a mirage, i could find no relief; > like a carrot dangling on a stick in front of me, i found no joy. > > it wasn't until i let go of the angst, > let go of the struggle to be well, > let go of the need to feel better, > that i actually started to experience life. > > i realized that it's not about trying to feel a certain way; > and like a friend reminded me, it's not about controlling other > people's opinion of me. > i had to find my own path, > the things i love, > the things i value. > > i had to create me from the ground up, > for no-one was going to do that for me. > > the more i found my joy in things like music, > the more i realized my sense of wellbeing. > > and when you are not dominated by the opinions of others, > like a wise sage has said, > you come to experience your true freedom. > > yet you can only do this when you love your life, > and you love it because you have things you love, > and people you love, > and experiences you love. > > let go of the need to please; > and be free to be what you want to be. > --------- > From http://3dgeofsanity.wordpress.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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