Re: The Terror at Work

[Guest guest]

Thsnkyou for your support, and I do feel much better today. I very

much relate to your work situation as well.

I saw my doctor last week about my high stress levels and so she has

prescribed for me 12 weeks of CBT on the NHS. She also booked in for up

to 6 session with a laywer who specialises in work related problems, and

this is also part of the national health service. He will be able to put

me right about the bullying I am getting at work and sort out my rights.

With thanks,

Kv

>

>

> I have to write this in code form because I work in a big company and

I

> might get recognised. But I put in 200% at work and have always made

my

> job a number one priority. But the other day there was a small

> misdemeaner on my part and I got caught falsifying my job sheet.

> Basically I said A was wrong when it was B which just happens to be

very

> much the same thing. My supervisor laughed and said he was the biggest

> cheat going so I can't fool him and we all laughed because I felt it

was

> nothing really. Anyway, they work me so hard that I did spend ten

> minutes trying to find peace in meditate. I thought that I had found

the

> fault qiuckly so why not get a bit back from them. I never do this

> normally, it was jst a one off.

>

> I worked so hard yesterday and I looked like a coal miner all covered

in

> ash and soot from a very filthy machine, but I was pleased with my

high

> standard of workmanship even though I had to work through lunch, yet

> again, to get it done in time. I then got a warning from a collegue

that

> the superviser has put in a report about me falsifying data the other

> day and for taken too long to complete a job.

>

> So I will be dragged before a manger who is just as psychopathic as my

> superviser who loved making you feel absolutely terrible and upset

them

> . It will be like I have done a crime against humanity, or something,

> and I will probalbly get a grade A disciplinary for this. If I get

> another one in two years I will probably get the sack. My manager is

> that ruthless and has sacked a lot of people.

>

> I did not sleep last night because I am so angry as I feel that I am

> being treated like a criminal when in fact I deserve a gold stars for

> the hard work I have put in. It is just so unfair but there is nothing

I

> can do about it as I was indeed wrong on this occasion. And if I get

> angry, which I won't, they are likely to send me home and put me on a

> final discipline that could even get me sacked. This is how ruthless

> they are.

>

> I have been there 30 years, hardly take any sick, am never late, work

> after hours for nothing sometimes, often miss tea breaks, source parts

> on the internet in my own time which I can use to refurburish things

and

> so to save my company money, etc.

>

> I was talking to a new engineer the otherday who just started work

here

> and he was a superviser at his old firm. He said my superviser was

> nutcase and is seriously out of order, so he is looking for another

job,

> he won't be staying here. My superviser is a very malicious nasty man.

>

> Inside me I feel like a little boy, who is a very good boy, but I have

> been punched so really hard in the face. I feel assaulted and that I

> must be really bad to bring out much hatred and anger in someone.

>

> I wish I could stop ruminating about this, but sometimes when I am

> really upset I find I can slow my mind down and find peace. For the

next

> 3 hours I will go into some kind of silence, hopefully.

>

> I don't know what you folk will make of this post, but some of you

might

> be able to relate to it.

>

> Kv

>

[Guest guest]

I'm a little underwhelmed about the CBT but it might be the best thing

for me right now. If I make a partial, or complete, recovery ACT should

then become more effective because my chronic tension tends to stop it

from working.

I'm fascinated by Buddhism but I still find that the loss of ego,

passsion, and desire, disturbing. But to live in a world of radical

acceptance and mindfulness, which buddhists say is better than sex as it

brings such immence happinees, intrigues me. I felt so alive and happy

as a child where the world was just so incredibly immense awesome, and

wonderful but maybe ACT with its western mindfulness techniques will

save the day and I won't have to go down the rather 'I'm not sure if

this is for me' buddhist route.

Kv

> >

> >

> > I have to write this in code form because I work in a big company

and

> I

> > might get recognised. But I put in 200% at work and have always made

> my

> > job a number one priority. But the other day there was a small

> > misdemeaner on my part and I got caught falsifying my job sheet.

> > Basically I said A was wrong when it was B which just happens to be

> very

> > much the same thing. My supervisor laughed and said he was the

biggest

> > cheat going so I can't fool him and we all laughed because I felt it

> was

> > nothing really. Anyway, they work me so hard that I did spend ten

> > minutes trying to find peace in meditate. I thought that I had found

> the

> > fault qiuckly so why not get a bit back from them. I never do this

> > normally, it was jst a one off.

> >

> > I worked so hard yesterday and I looked like a coal miner all

covered

> in

> > ash and soot from a very filthy machine, but I was pleased with my

> high

> > standard of workmanship even though I had to work through lunch, yet

> > again, to get it done in time. I then got a warning from a collegue

> that

> > the superviser has put in a report about me falsifying data the

other

> > day and for taken too long to complete a job.

> >

> > So I will be dragged before a manger who is just as psychopathic as

my

> > superviser who loved making you feel absolutely terrible and upset

> them

> > . It will be like I have done a crime against humanity, or

something,

> > and I will probalbly get a grade A disciplinary for this. If I get

> > another one in two years I will probably get the sack. My manager is

> > that ruthless and has sacked a lot of people.

> >

> > I did not sleep last night because I am so angry as I feel that I am

> > being treated like a criminal when in fact I deserve a gold stars

for

> > the hard work I have put in. It is just so unfair but there is

nothing

> I

> > can do about it as I was indeed wrong on this occasion. And if I get

> > angry, which I won't, they are likely to send me home and put me on

a

> > final discipline that could even get me sacked. This is how ruthless

> > they are.

> >

> > I have been there 30 years, hardly take any sick, am never late,

work

> > after hours for nothing sometimes, often miss tea breaks, source

parts

> > on the internet in my own time which I can use to refurburish things

> and

> > so to save my company money, etc.

> >

> > I was talking to a new engineer the otherday who just started work

> here

> > and he was a superviser at his old firm. He said my superviser was

> > nutcase and is seriously out of order, so he is looking for another

> job,

> > he won't be staying here. My superviser is a very malicious nasty

man.

> >

> > Inside me I feel like a little boy, who is a very good boy, but I

have

> > been punched so really hard in the face. I feel assaulted and that I

> > must be really bad to bring out much hatred and anger in someone.

> >

> > I wish I could stop ruminating about this, but sometimes when I am

> > really upset I find I can slow my mind down and find peace. For the

> next

> > 3 hours I will go into some kind of silence, hopefully.

> >

> > I don't know what you folk will make of this post, but some of you

> might

> > be able to relate to it.

> >

> > Kv

> >

>

[Guest guest]

hi, i am doing a 'course' of CBT and am feeling underwhelmed also. it's the same

material I read,literally, decades ago--maybe I can make it stick this time? it

is sad, to me, to be given handouts that are xeroxed from a 30 year old book

that I have at home. D. Burns materials. I didn't say anything in the

group, but the leader offered that she knew this may appear to be dated, and

that there really hadn't been any improvements in CBT since Ellis and Burns

'wrote the book'.

[Guest guest]

Thankyou for your detailed post, Rodolfo. The book looked really good so

I bought it.

Do you know, the idea of going about with a cropped haircut and a orange

robe doesn't really do that much for me. I still want a bit of Rock and

Roll in my life.

Kv

> >> > >

> >> > >

> >> > > I have to write this in code form because I work in a big

company

> >> and

> >> > I

> >> > > might get recognised. But I put in 200% at work and have always

made

> >> > my

> >> > > job a number one priority. But the other day there was a small

> >> > > misdemeaner on my part and I got caught falsifying my job

sheet.

> >> > > Basically I said A was wrong when it was B which just happens

to be

> >> > very

> >> > > much the same thing. My supervisor laughed and said he was the

> >> biggest

> >> > > cheat going so I can't fool him and we all laughed because I

felt it

> >> > was

> >> > > nothing really. Anyway, they work me so hard that I did spend

ten

> >> > > minutes trying to find peace in meditate. I thought that I had

found

> >> > the

> >> > > fault qiuckly so why not get a bit back from them. I never do

this

> >> > > normally, it was jst a one off.

> >> > >

> >> > > I worked so hard yesterday and I looked like a coal miner all

> >> covered

> >> > in

> >> > > ash and soot from a very filthy machine, but I was pleased with

my

> >> > high

> >> > > standard of workmanship even though I had to work through

lunch, yet

> >> > > again, to get it done in time. I then got a warning from a

collegue

> >> > that

> >> > > the superviser has put in a report about me falsifying data the

> >> other

> >> > > day and for taken too long to complete a job.

> >> > >

> >> > > So I will be dragged before a manger who is just as

psychopathic as

> >> my

> >> > > superviser who loved making you feel absolutely terrible and

upset

> >> > them

> >> > > . It will be like I have done a crime against humanity, or

> >> something,

> >> > > and I will probalbly get a grade A disciplinary for this. If I

get

> >> > > another one in two years I will probably get the sack. My

manager is

> >> > > that ruthless and has sacked a lot of people.

> >> > >

> >> > > I did not sleep last night because I am so angry as I feel that

I am

> >> > > being treated like a criminal when in fact I deserve a gold

stars

> >> for

> >> > > the hard work I have put in. It is just so unfair but there is

> >> nothing

> >> > I

> >> > > can do about it as I was indeed wrong on this occasion. And if

I get

> >> > > angry, which I won't, they are likely to send me home and put

me on

> >> a

> >> > > final discipline that could even get me sacked. This is how

ruthless

> >> > > they are.

> >> > >

> >> > > I have been there 30 years, hardly take any sick, am never

late,

> >> work

> >> > > after hours for nothing sometimes, often miss tea breaks,

source

> >> parts

> >> > > on the internet in my own time which I can use to refurburish

things

> >> > and

> >> > > so to save my company money, etc.

> >> > >

> >> > > I was talking to a new engineer the otherday who just started

work

> >> > here

> >> > > and he was a superviser at his old firm. He said my superviser

was

> >> > > nutcase and is seriously out of order, so he is looking for

another

> >> > job,

> >> > > he won't be staying here. My superviser is a very malicious

nasty

> >> man.

> >> > >

> >> > > Inside me I feel like a little boy, who is a very good boy, but

I

> >> have

> >> > > been punched so really hard in the face. I feel assaulted and

that I

> >> > > must be really bad to bring out much hatred and anger in

someone.

> >> > >

> >> > > I wish I could stop ruminating about this, but sometimes when I

am

> >> > > really upset I find I can slow my mind down and find peace. For

the

> >> > next

> >> > > 3 hours I will go into some kind of silence, hopefully.

> >> > >

> >> > > I don't know what you folk will make of this post, but some of

you

> >> > might

> >> > > be able to relate to it.

> >> > >

> >> > > Kv

> >> > >

> >> >

> >>

> >>

> >>

> >

> >

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