Guest guest Posted April 2, 2012 Report Share Posted April 2, 2012 feels better I tried meditation, at the first, can only feel the pain, emptiness,sadness everywhere, I almost lost into it, and suddenly I opened my eyes, see the green grass, tree, bird and the sunshine. I feel like a bit large than before, just find pain is not everything, but just a part. My attention is broaden like to change to larger container. after I look at it objectively, I realized that there are many thing I can not control. I can not control other people, nor the sickness or healing of others, That totally depend on higher will which totally outside my control. I can only heal myself. take the best use of my available resource and this moment. feel a sense of acceptance of reality and easiness . > > > Suddenly a small thing happen. It seems trigger so much of pain. > I parking my car near a park. Under the tree. I feel like freezing. It seem a lot of emotion stuck on my throat i wanna to cry out. But the tears can not come out. > > Have no idea how this can come out. In reality just one friend move and ending of friendship. Maybe pain already there i just get in touch to it. i dare not to eat pain pills. For i don't want pain stuck in my body. None i wanna to act out of pain/ i don't wanna others to know that i am so needy inside. Just feel the pain and hope can get through..... > > I recently work to improve animal right. Now i know why. To care for weak can easy my pain. > > Anyone knows the same. Or method to realise pain... > > Thanks for listening > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 2, 2012 Report Share Posted April 2, 2012 Thanks Lou I think I will be well soon or even better I have experienced lost again and again, and slowly I become less and less needy. I feel draw to animal, and help them, for I feel I like animal emotionally, when I part my dog, he was crying and crying.... no human ever loved me like that. in the early years of my life, I was so needy and full of attachment, I do not fully developed emotionally as human and people make use of that and hurts me. slowly I grow up, and understand dignity as woman and connect to my inner divinity. inside, I know that I am already complete without needing anyone, this allow me more self respect, act more detached way....... Just feel this is safe environment and vent those emotion out and let go....... cheers > > > > > > Suddenly a small thing happen. It seems trigger so much of pain. > > I parking my car near a park. Under the tree. I feel like freezing. It seem a lot of emotion stuck on my throat i wanna to cry out. But the tears can not come out. > > > > Have no idea how this can come out. In reality just one friend move and ending of friendship. Maybe pain already there i just get in touch to it. i dare not to eat pain pills. For i don't want pain stuck in my body. None i wanna to act out of pain/ i don't wanna others to know that i am so needy inside. Just feel the pain and hope can get through..... > > > > I recently work to improve animal right. Now i know why. To care for weak can easy my pain. > > > > Anyone knows the same. Or method to realise pain... > > > > Thanks for listening > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 2, 2012 Report Share Posted April 2, 2012 I find it weaird at how psychological pain can cause so much physical pain. My body hurts because of muscuar tension and dreadful sleep, and now I have stomach acid pains again. I haven't had acid pains for years but now thay have started again. They once went on for 3 years making my life a complete misery but it eventually healed. But this should be gone in a few weeks if I am lucky. Kv > > > Suddenly a small thing happen. It seems trigger so much of pain. > I parking my car near a park. Under the tree. I feel like freezing. It seem a lot of emotion stuck on my throat i wanna to cry out. But the tears can not come out. > > Have no idea how this can come out. In reality just one friend move and ending of friendship. Maybe pain already there i just get in touch to it. i dare not to eat pain pills. For i don't want pain stuck in my body. None i wanna to act out of pain/ i don't wanna others to know that i am so needy inside. Just feel the pain and hope can get through..... > > I recently work to improve animal right. Now i know why. To care for weak can easy my pain. > > Anyone knows the same. Or method to realise pain... > > Thanks for listening > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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