Mindfulness and Beer

[Guest guest]

Ever since my near complete nervous breakdown two weeks ago I have not

drank anything at all. But last night, being Friday, I thought I would

have two points of London Pride, and it was nice. Except I woke up this

morning regrettring it, because I had lost out being full y aware of

each moment. Now I'm rubbish at being mindful, but I can still enjoy

each moment to its fullest, and even though I am in quite a lot of pain

right now (piles this time, but lots stomach acid pain all last week -

I'm falling apart it seems), there is still a lot of pleasure to be had

in each moment.

Still, I don't think I am ready for going teetotal yet, and anyway, I am

going to a wedding reception tonight that is being held in a brewery, so

I don't think I stand a chance, really, but somehow each moment is

becoming more precious and I don't want to just let it go in an some

unconscious blur. Even laying in bed unable to sleep suffering fear I

can saviour every moment as there's always something nice to

expererience as well. Like listenig to the lovely sounds outside through

my open bedroom window, and knowing that this mindfulness is the start

of healing.

I'm looking forward to be more successful at mindfulness one day, and

I'm hoping, when I am quite good at, to spend a night drinking three

pints of Wells Banana Bread Beer down the Dog and Bull in a completely

mindful state -could be intersting? Hmmm, perhaps there is no hope for

me afterall. But over the last few days I experienced some rather lovely

moments of happiness - a completely weird feeling for me -and something

inside me said I was now on the mend, even after 35 years of this.

Kv