what does it mean by heart felt desire?

[Guest guest]

From the day i had heard these word " what do you want in your life " .it has been

a STTOPED journey for me.i am searching inside myself but other then empitness

nothing retrun.

Maybe i am fused by the idea that my desire has to be something grandest

or can it be that i am searching in a wrong way.

Some of the things that bothers me are

1.every book i have read assume that there is this thing " desire or heart

felt " .and u have u find it out thru furneal exc. Or tombstone exc.

And try to align ur life with it. But when i see my grand parent living it is

more a function of day to day living but still they are more peace or happy.

2. As we all know at the end of life one day everthing we have will go away

including ourself. This being the context i am not able to motivte myself for

anything.

The mere thought of word ambition,desire,value pull me into a deep black hole

i had put my life on hold but i want to let the stream flow.BUT my MIND say u

should first know which way to flow.? And here again i got back into hold mode.