Guest guest Posted March 4, 2008 Report Share Posted March 4, 2008 Hello All, I wanted to share the huge lightbulb of my feelings over the last couple of days. For my entire lifetime, I've had this huge guilt on me, this belief that I owe my parents my life. That I must owe other people too. I've always felt terrible when I do something for myself, ask for something, take care of myself, or do something I enjoy. I've been NC with my mother for 5 years - since I realized that every time I saw her or spoke to her she said or did something so unforgivable that I would be in pain for at least 2 weeks following a 2 minute conversation, and that this was never going to change - but I've felt terrible guilt about it. Now that I have learned about BPD all of this has changed. For the first time I feel that my life is my own. It's amazing. I can't believe I lived to be 33 years old without knowing that I am a valuable human being who deserves the air she breathes and the space she occupies. I take pleasure in simple things like brushing my hair or picking up my house, I don't feel like I have to rush through everything so that I have plenty of time to take care of other people. My time and my life belong to me. Wow, Thanks for being here. Girlscout Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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