Wheel of Defusion

[Guest guest]

good morning fellow act'onians

i'm learning to walk the path, my mind and i have been at the act

processes for some time now, learning is slow but very rewarding at

times . said another way my mind and i have been together my whole life

but we were just recently introduced.

so my mind has this belief that " i'm no good at defusion " this thought

hung up my ACT progress for a period of time as i felt i had to master

defusion before i moved on to other ACT area. in talking with a comrade

and reading posts here i decided to accept my minds thoughts that " i'm

no good at defusion " and move on to another ACT concept, i chose Values.

in working on defining my Values my mind is quite full of chatter and my

body flows with sensation which leads to some internal confusion as to

which thoughts do a i flipping listen to as there are so many and they

are often so fleeting. and this internal process creates the confusion.

i have groked out a few values and am committed to keeping at the Values

work as my well-being is one value that sticks out clearly.

but anyway i'm getting a little sidetracked. on my drive to work this

morning my mind, as it does very morning is chatting up a negative storm

and i'm trying to defuse and accept when i had what was for me an small

a-ha moment. i noticed that in my attempts to defuse i had the

thought/belief/rule that i must precisely identify the thought or story

my mind was generating and then defuse from THAT exact thought. so as i

tooled down the road with this small nugget of realization i started to

imagine some of my negative thoughts laid out on The Wheel of Fortune

game wheel. there was " i'm no good " , " i'm gonna lose my job " , " i'm gonna

go broke " , " i'm a bad person " all laid out on the wheel. then i thought

let's spin the wheel and watch the thoughts go round and round and

whichever thought seems or feels most relevant then that is the one

that the wheel stops on and we can defuse from that thought. so i spun

the wheel a few times and then started enhancing the game like adding a

host, i went with Pat, adding in Vanna White, adding in the sound of the

wheel, the crowd clapping, and the show opening ..... Wheel --- of ----

DEFUSION . after playing the game for a while i had another small a-ha

moment, i felt/sensed that identifying the precise though to defuse was

not that important but that realizing that my mind was playing a game

was what is important (to me) and this realization created space.

this small game provided some insight for me and i thought it may be of

value to others.

warm regards,

brian