Re: start new project

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i have the same kinda mind, where i am always beating myself up, like why are

you not better than this? do more? why cant you be as good or as successful than

so and so? And so my mind beats me up for being less so or less than.

it makes me feel diminished, like as though i am not worthy, smart enough,

successful enough, etc etc.

most recently i tried CBT and replaced my negative self defeating thoughts w

more positive thoughts, and the most effective was to take a compassionate

stance towards myself.... that i am ok just the way i am, i may not be a 10 but

being a 5 is ok, sometimes things are kinda complex and murky or not very clear,

ambiguity, but i do the best i can and take whatever comes.

lately, i have been practicing noticing 5 things to bring my mind back to the

present, like hear 5 things, smell 5 things, see 5 things, etc.

but of course, my mind is always racing, judging, exploring, evaluating,

thinking, thinking, thinking.

not sure, this seems to lead me to ruminate... and rumination often means i

check out mentally or emotionally from other people, from life, i meander around

going to work, doing chores, but with no destination, well maybe that is just

what my mind thinks.

Strange.

Tom

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> I start new project and feel nervous.

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> At the beginning, because my stress level goes up. my efficiency goes low. and

there are negative thoughts comes up " It's too hard " " how comes if it not work

out " " I am dumb " etc. etc

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> Don't fight, just stay with it, and start the job at hand, read study material

if I find difficult. keep doing, after a while (sometime 5 mins), this neg

thoughts magically disappear, and I regained my efficiency and maybe more.

people report higher efficiency under stress, that's all!

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> All the secret lays stay with it! and just do it!

> If we get rid of the traps, we can tap out of comfort zone, act out of value

and grow.

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> Just want to share it.

> bless to all

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