I thought ...

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I came across this poem (below) in my saved documents today and thought it sounded like something I went through a couple of years ago. I had a really neat boyfriend for awhile that I thought the world of. Things didn't work out for us. I couldn't handle his seeing/having sex with other women while he was seeing me - when he didn't tell me about it and implied that I was the only woman in his life. If he had discussed it with me instead of hiding it, I may have been OK with it since we were not that serious about each other at the time.He seemed to be more spiritually advanced than I was - and I thought his "light" would shine on me and somehow make me a better person. As I was reading this poem today that seemed to familiar, it suddenly occurred to me: I wrote that!So I'm sharing it here in case it strikes a chord in anything you may be going through, or have been through in the past.HelenaI Guess It Doesn't Work That WayI thought

That you might hold me up to your Light

Let me bask in your Light

So that I could catch the beams reflected from you

And become a brighter person just from

Being with you

But I guess it doesn’t work that way

Does it?

You shone so bright it hurt

No wonder I thought what I did

That I could get a little bit of what you had

Just by being in your presence

Just by being with you

But I guess it doesn’t work that way

Does it?

We shone

Making love

Passion circling all ‘round

Making its point, finally

Happy and drained

I thought that was all I wanted

But I guess it doesn’t work that way

Does it?

I thought I could become a better person

By being with you

By loving you

By letting your Light shine on me

By letting you in

But I guess it doesn’t work that way

Does it?