Feeling unworthy and less than

[Guest guest]

I have been encouraged to write this post today because I have been struggling

this past week with my " skeletons in the closet " better known as my past. I

find myself feeling unworthy of other peoples love, attention, time, and energy

because of things that have happened to me as well as things that I have done.

Can we say fusion. I do pretty well with defusing from most of lifes events

however when I started working with my therapist recently on my past and

accepting that I am not the same person and I never will be that I am only the

me that is here in this moment I found it very hard to seperate myself from my

feelings of unworthiness. I have struggled with low self esteem as long as I

can remember....that is not to say I haven't had the moments of saying " you go

girl, you got and you know it. " I would have to say the majority of my time

however I have spent trying to prove to others that I was worth their love and

affection even when I didn't get it.

I am old enough now to stand on my own two feet (even when I only stand on one

do to surgery on the other) however I still search for approval in others.

I was wondering if anyone else feels like this and if they do how they have

managed to cope with it, and make a worthwhile life out of maybe not so

worthwhile beginnings.

Marcia