Guest guest Posted March 12, 2008 Report Share Posted March 12, 2008 Hi Crystal, Welcome! I think you will fit right in : ~ ) I don't think in words either, unless I make the effort to-- logic and pictures and directions and color and sequence and ... are all easier! Eye contact? just learning! crystal wrote: Hi everybody! I am 98% positive that I have high functioning autism (not officially diagnosed yet but have been with panic disorder) and joined this group in hopes that I might learn more about myself. My brother Has a degree in sociology and has been taking care of me for the past year as my family has been unable to because of my " special needs " .(I am unable to work a job, i've tried several times, and even going to the store alone is terrifying to me and nearly impossible)He is the one that noticed and helped me figure out I most likely have HFA. Some of the things that have been braught to my attention that I " do " or the behavior symptoms of me are things that I want to know are typical for high functioning autism or not. One of these things is the perception of " living in a bubble " where I hide from the world, sort of like I live inside my body and the eyes are the windows.. (whenever someone tries to look in my windows I hide even more.) I have trouble forming sentances without stuttering or constant pauses (because all the words are trying to come out at once and in a jumbled non-organized way). I also think only in pictures.. I see pictures of everything and anything in my head, it is my internal language and human speech is translated into pictures for me to understand. My own ideas are translated from pictures into human speech langauge, also causing speaking to be a bit difficult for me. Two more things are I choose my word choice based on its " feel " to me (causing some sentences to sound quite strange or for me to make up new words such as " unhauled " ) and also choose clothing based on its feel, I cant stand stuff thats not soft (like fleece). I recently learned that HFA'ers have something in common in the way of digestive problems (which I do to a high degree!) and am wondering what more I can learn! I just want to know what of my personality is me and what is the HFA. So if anybody can add anything, any clues, please do! I will also add mine for those who are seeking answeres as well. Sorry this is so long... --------------------------------- Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 12, 2008 Report Share Posted March 12, 2008 Hi Crystal, welcome! Some of the things you describe could be part of an ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). A formal assessment would help you clarify things. Temple Grandin wrote a book called " Thinking in Pictures: my life with autism " which might be a good resource. I've not read it for years (since a support worker borrowed my copy and then resigned and I never saw her again!) so can't remember much of the content. It's good to be aware that not all spectrum people think in pictures - personally I'm highly verbal and need language to make much sense of the world. People on the spectrum are highly diverse and varied. If you hang around online autistic community long enough you will likely come across people you have much in common with - and people who are on almost the oposite end of the spectrum and very different from you. Neurodiversity is fab! I'm Genyin. I was diagnosed with ASD at 30yo and am now 34, living in the UK in a small informal community in a large farmhouse - with non-autistics but a lot of people in transition periods in their lives. It's not intended to be special needs or anything, just seems to attract people who need to give and receive support, which is nice :-) Genyin -- " I know the answer! The answer lies within the heart of all mankind! The answer is twelve? I think I'm in the wrong building. " M. Schultz Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 12, 2008 Report Share Posted March 12, 2008 Thank you for suggesting that book, it does sound like i'll like it! I'll look it up and see if I can find it anywhere. I agree with everything you said. It is unknown yet whether we'll be able to get me to get a diagnoses officially since it will cost money and we're looking to get me into college this summer (mostly internet classes). We have been looking into it though. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 19, 2008 Report Share Posted March 19, 2008 yeah. I even went to see a psychologist over mine, and I couldn't get a confirmed diagnosis from him either. He gave me an IQ test, and the IQ test shows I have an IQ of 79.. so VR is now thinking I am too " stupid " to attend college. like noooo thats NOT why I went there! arrgh!! I mean, gosh, even if I do have an IQ of 79, isn't that like, a red flag right there that I just " might " have autism, or something along those lines? I just don't understand these psychologists sometimes Tom > Thank you for suggesting that book, it does sound like i'll like it! > I'll look it up and see if I can find it anywhere. I agree with > everything you said. It is unknown yet whether we'll be able to get me > to get a diagnoses officially since it will cost money and we're > looking to get me into college this summer (mostly internet classes). > We have been looking into it though. > > > -- http://www.tcoburn.net Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2008 Report Share Posted March 20, 2008 > I mean, gosh, even if I do have an IQ of 79, isn't that like, a red flag > right there > that I just " might " have autism, or something along those lines? > I just don't understand these psychologists sometimes It would be worth finding out, if you can, if your IQ results showed peaks and troughs and the 79 average is actually meaningless. I score almost off the charts on some of the verbal parts but my performance average was 91 when I was last tested. It's common in ASD to have a significant difference between verbal and performance IQ as tested. Lol and it doesn't stop me coming out with the wrong words or being unable to recall words and struggling to describe things ... Genyin > -- " I know the answer! The answer lies within the heart of all mankind! The answer is twelve? I think I'm in the wrong building. " M. Schultz Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 21, 2008 Report Share Posted March 21, 2008 Crystal, As far as speaking, one thing I have in addition to aspergers is selective mutism which is lifelong. On Wed, Mar 12, 2008 at 9:57 AM, Princess wrote: > Hi Crystal, > > Welcome! I think you will fit right in : ~ ) I don't think in words > either, unless I make the effort to-- logic and pictures and directions and > color and sequence and ... are all easier! Eye contact? just learning! > > > > > crystal <kittie887@... <kittie887%40aol.com>> wrote: > Hi everybody! I am 98% positive that I have high functioning autism > (not officially diagnosed yet but have been with panic disorder) and > joined this group in hopes that I might learn more about myself. My > brother Has a degree in sociology and has been taking care of me for > the past year as my family has been unable to because of my " special > needs " .(I am unable to work a job, i've tried several times, and even > going to the store alone is terrifying to me and nearly impossible)He > is the one that noticed and helped me figure out I most likely have HFA. > > Some of the things that have been braught to my attention that I " do " > or the behavior symptoms of me are things that I want to know are > typical for high functioning autism or not. One of these things is the > perception of " living in a bubble " where I hide from the world, sort > of like I live inside my body and the eyes are the windows.. (whenever > someone tries to look in my windows I hide even more.) I have trouble > forming sentances without stuttering or constant pauses (because all > the words are trying to come out at once and in a jumbled > non-organized way). I also think only in pictures.. I see pictures of > everything and anything in my head, it is my internal language and > human speech is translated into pictures for me to understand. My own > ideas are translated from pictures into human speech langauge, also > causing speaking to be a bit difficult for me. Two more things are I > choose my word choice based on its " feel " to me (causing some > sentences to sound quite strange or for me to make up new words such > as " unhauled " ) and also choose clothing based on its feel, I cant > stand stuff thats not soft (like fleece). > > I recently learned that HFA'ers have something in common in the way of > digestive problems (which I do to a high degree!) and am wondering > what more I can learn! I just want to know what of my personality is > me and what is the HFA. So if anybody can add anything, any clues, > please do! I will also add mine for those who are seeking answeres as > well. Sorry this is so long... > > --------------------------------- > Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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