Off Work/Worried

[Guest guest]

Hi All,

Yesterday was my last day of work,applying for disability benefits.

As long as I worked and tried to ignore my illness and keep everything as

" normal " as possible I was okay.

The lady taking my position at work is very compassionate, and when all

others left the coffee room, she asked how the doc visit went. Well, I

started crying, not the tears well up in your eyes type, the actual sobbing.

I could believe it was happening, and then I realize not everyone is gone

and these truckers are sitting in absolute silence, with hugh eyes. I was

totally mortified. I have work with them for six years and never cry or try

to show too much emotion, as I am a manager.

Earlier at the doctors, He confirmed that I was getting worse, and need to

wear a heart monitor for a bit, my vision is worse, and my gracefulness is

absolutely amazing as I hold walls and trip on the mats.

The Doc was so worried about my emotional state that most of the visit was

directed to helping me cope. I told him I was just having a poor me morning

and things would be much better, but he does not believe it and now wants me

back in two weeks, and to bring my husband with me. I think he knows I think

I can tough problems out on my own, and wants Lyle there to have a true

picture.

I was very disappointed we did not concentrate on the disability form, and

that he said we would do up the forms for three months at a time, because he

knew me and did't believe I would be happy at home and didn't want me to

think of this as permanent because that would be too overwhelming.

I really don't think my emotional state is that bad, just stressed because

AMC took my social, now it's taken my job. But it can't take my family and

so many special persons in my life.

I hope doc is not right!

Take Care

AMC 6.5, Syrinx

Canada

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[Guest guest]

Honey,

I don't have the right answers for you, just want you to know that I am here

for you. I wish I lived closer to you so I could come over and give you a

big gentle hug and have you put your feet up and I would fixed us some hot

chocolate with marshmellows, don't that sound yummy? Then we could talk or

just sit there and you would know that someone does care about you going

thru what you are going thru. But you are a strong Lady, you have worked and

worked even though your social life was null, you have tried to be strong

even though the cards are against you right now, but they will not always be

stacked up against you. Go ahead and take the three months the doc is

wanting to put you on and then after that time, you can see if you need 3

more or not. The reason he probably wants Lyle there is to see if someone

else knows what is going on with you, it is not because you are a weak

person. I admire you for working as long as you have, now go and take care

of YOU.

I'm here if you need me.

Martha P.