Advice needed.!!

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Hi,

I'm a 33 year-old married mother of 3, and- basically, need some advice!

Today I discovered and AQ test- quite by chance- I took it, and scored

36. Took it again, more carefully and scored 36. Took a few other

versions and scored...(you guessed it...) 36. Now I've always felt a

bit out of whack with the world, but I've never considered myself as

being on the Autistic Spectrum, although I think one of my daughters

probably is- and possibly both my brothers too.

I have a history of depression and OCD, and am on permanant mild

antidepressants to help anxiety etc... but I was still surprised by

these test results. Now I know this is only a test... blah, blah...

flawed, not accurate, etc....

Actually, my husband took it later and scored as highly as me, but he

is a 'typical' geek, but his people skills are good- he is just

antisocial like myself..

All my life I have felt: I can only describe it as, like an alien on a

strange planet. I feel like I am acting the entire time to be a

'human' and fit in. I am pretty good at it by now, but I feel it's all

learned and copied behaviour, not natural. I have NO idea at all as to

how others might view me, but I always feel very awkward socially

except with those I know really well, and I can never tell (for

example) when someone is chatting me up, or not...

I have been depressed again lately, wondering why I have so much

trouble making and keeping friends- and what it is I do wrong? I'd

personally be quite happy with just my husband's company if he wasn't

at work all day- but I don't want my kids to miss out so I socialise

on their behalf mainly. It's hard work- much easier online!!

Firstly, do you think my problems might be related to Autism or

similar, and secondly, what do I do about it??

Thanks in advance!

Ana

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