this is me, i guess

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http://www.autism.org/sib.html

<Some forms of self-injury may be a result of overarousal (such as

frustration). Self-injury acts as a release, and thus, lowers arousal.

(Treatment: One should try to reduce the person's general arousal

level, such as through relaxation/visual imagery therapy, deep

pressure, and exercise.)>

I keep now wondering, " Is it part of AS/autism spectrum or is it BPD

(borderline personality disorder), or am I just nuts? " I can find NO

links to anything online that juxtapose AS or autism and BPD so I am

making things up, as usual. For about 2 years I had self-diagnosed as

having borderline personality but I am not so sure... or I could have

both.

The site was interesting because it listed behaviors that are more

like mine, whereas a lot of BPD sites seem to focus on cutting

behaviors. Hope I am not making anybody feel queasy here.... sorry.

Just trying to figure this stuff out to make sense of my life for the

past 40 or so years.

If anyone has thoughts or links on this please let me know.

By the way, I am reducing the self-injurious behaviors. Not sure why

but I am so that's good. Now I just THINK about them... it's a start.

Rhonda

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<<<<Rhonda said, snipped>>>>

or is it BPD

(borderline personality disorder), or am I just nuts? " I can find NO

links to anything online that juxtapose AS or autism and BPD so I am

making things up, as usual. >>>>>

It probably doesn't really matter " what its a part of " as it appears to be

a part of Rhonda, at this point.

In this attempt to sort things out, deal with things as they come about,

and may I suggest, eliminate self effacing talk such as: " maybe I am ___

this or this ___or this___'as usual.' " My own husband, (before his death

obviously)

waited for me to let go of the autism subject (for Christ's sake!) and I

wouldn't

but funnily enough I would not and yrs. later after my officialy diagnosis

was

confirmed, he quietly shook his head and said " I always knew. "

Of course he did. Who wanted to admit a flawed wife?

That type of self- put down I mentioned above is not the first one I've

heard from you. I'm

wondering if you surround yourself with negative people and its rubbed

off, in a sense.

Maybe labels aren't really that important. Maybe a diagnosis will come in

time for you

when the time is right for you. I think the longer you hang around here,

you'll absorb a lot.

K