UPDATE: finally started therapy, but maybe weird emotional side effects?

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okay, so i went to the therapist last thursday and i was talking

about things that were upsetting, but i didn't feel upset. i did

notice, however, that i started twitching and shaking slightly. when

i stepped out of the office, i started shivering. now this isn't

abnormal for me. i shiver at the drop of a hat. i thought it was

because i was cold, but now i'm starting to realize that sometimes

i'm NOT cold when i shiver. sometimes i just shake. this is really

a bizarre realization for me. it started really bad in high school

when i had a major depressed episode (lasted 2 years).

on friday, i was less angry than the last time and more stressed out

of my mind (also i was having a lot of existential angst because one

of the kids brought a baby squirrel he had found and it wasn't doing

so hot. i tried to help it, but the poor little guy didn't pull

through). also, my back is a complete wreck. wore a back brace all

week to deal with it. it actually helped a lot.

therapy is really really really weird. LIKE REALLY! i'm connecting

dots that i didn't know could be connected at all. does anybody else

shiver or is it just me?

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