Guest guest Posted August 10, 2002 Report Share Posted August 10, 2002 It is Post Tramatic Stresss Syndrom. I was literally afraid of myself - of what I would do...I had such a violent hate in me - it scarred me. My kids are both pretty much that way. My 3 year old (oops, 4 now) will tell me " I want a drink (or whatever), NOW! " It's hard to be a submissive wife and not a dorrmat...I found no problem with hthis --- but what others, including my children see - must be a different thing than I see. Even my motherinlaw and his sister think I should stand up for myself - but stand up for what? Porn is the only problem I have....aand I can't even taalk to him about it. I am afraid if I put my food down I will then end uyp haaveing to leave - I don't want that. \ang > What is ptss , he offered to take one of the kids , but I said juz leave them > here where they wont get into trouble , Im getting ready to break bad on my 9 > yr old , hes a very agaitated , attitude child .. its his way or the highway > , hum , dont know where he gets it from . debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 10, 2002 Report Share Posted August 10, 2002 I already here him out in the woods coming back through....I know in one way he's not (in this instance), but another part of me is on the road to ruin again. I mean I can be sitting looking at him and he's sleeping ---- still I am crazy thinking he must be dreaming about her/them/whatever...He does the action yet I think I am really sick here...I mean - this really takes over my whole life - all day, all night - everything. 1 big huge mess. R9ight or wrong - sometimes I wish I was one of those women who just 'didn't mind'. But I ggrew up knowing " it's the thought that counts " ....and I figure he's doing alot of thinking! Just this morning for instance...he comes in (I'm sleeping on the couch)...he's .... well, VERY awake if you know what I mean. The first thought im my head was who did he dream about to get turned on, or has he been on the computer - I even asked - when did you get up -- - he says an hour ago....well, the 'morning thing' don';t lst for no hour or so...so I wonder - kwhat got him all reaady to go this morning....at his age and 15 some odd yearsof marriage, it takes something to get him started. So, is that just sick thinking or should I wonder? Ang > Isnt he a little to old to be riding around in 4 whlr vehicle like we did as > teenagers . > Sorry , I know you love him . , I tail him and nail him if I thought he was > doing something deceptive. Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 10, 2002 Report Share Posted August 10, 2002 I already here him out in the woods coming back through....I know in one way he's not (in this instance), but another part of me is on the road to ruin again. I mean I can be sitting looking at him and he's sleeping ---- still I am crazy thinking he must be dreaming about her/them/whatever...He does the action yet I think I am really sick here...I mean - this really takes over my whole life - all day, all night - everything. 1 big huge mess. R9ight or wrong - sometimes I wish I was one of those women who just 'didn't mind'. But I ggrew up knowing " it's the thought that counts " ....and I figure he's doing alot of thinking! Just this morning for instance...he comes in (I'm sleeping on the couch)...he's .... well, VERY awake if you know what I mean. The first thought im my head was who did he dream about to get turned on, or has he been on the computer - I even asked - when did you get up -- - he says an hour ago....well, the 'morning thing' don';t lst for no hour or so...so I wonder - kwhat got him all reaady to go this morning....at his age and 15 some odd yearsof marriage, it takes something to get him started. So, is that just sick thinking or should I wonder? Ang > Isnt he a little to old to be riding around in 4 whlr vehicle like we did as > teenagers . > Sorry , I know you love him . , I tail him and nail him if I thought he was > doing something deceptive. Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 10, 2002 Report Share Posted August 10, 2002 I need to for sanity and money ---- but there's no way with my boys. Even with a stay at home mom they have enough problems. Ang > If I were in your shoes I would wonder myself what got him started . Gosh I > wish there was something I could do for you , and I thought I had it bad with > the piddly diddly stuff I go through . Do you work outside the home to get > your mind off some things .. Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 10, 2002 Report Share Posted August 10, 2002 I need to for sanity and money ---- but there's no way with my boys. Even with a stay at home mom they have enough problems. Ang > If I were in your shoes I would wonder myself what got him started . Gosh I > wish there was something I could do for you , and I thought I had it bad with > the piddly diddly stuff I go through . Do you work outside the home to get > your mind off some things .. Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 2002 Report Share Posted August 11, 2002 Everything I've found so far is a py first then work thing... I did babysitting for yeaars - I don't thinkmy stress level is low enough for that nymore. Ang > Ang, > > have you thought about a stay at home job? Direct sales, babysitting, home > typist, medical billing anything like that?? Justa thought for sanity & $$ > sake?? > > Mindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 2002 Report Share Posted August 11, 2002 Everything I've found so far is a py first then work thing... I did babysitting for yeaars - I don't thinkmy stress level is low enough for that nymore. Ang > Ang, > > have you thought about a stay at home job? Direct sales, babysitting, home > typist, medical billing anything like that?? Justa thought for sanity & $$ > sake?? > > Mindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 2002 Report Share Posted August 11, 2002 hhmmmm, sounds like my BF....but with him it is hours spent on the golf course with his family! > > Yeah uncooked the sauce cooks it while its heating up , pretty neat > I think , > > yeah you probably could cook other uncooked noodles that way , I > never tried > > only with the lasanga ... These kids are driving me nuts I wish > they would > > go to bed so i can watch a movie I rented , I refuse to turn on tv > because > > then the runts will be in my room to drive me nuts futher , old man > out until > > 11pm at the fair (church booth ) Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 2002 Report Share Posted August 12, 2002 Hey Debi, that sounds good! How do you cook lasagna in a crock pot? I love to use a crock pot cause it doesnt heat up your house to cook something a long time. Tina ) Re: I forgot to tell you... good for you , Im about to die , Im cooking lasanga in crockpot for church dinner tomorow and it smells so good ... Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 2002 Report Share Posted August 12, 2002 Hey Debi, that sounds good! How do you cook lasagna in a crock pot? I love to use a crock pot cause it doesnt heat up your house to cook something a long time. Tina ) Re: I forgot to tell you... good for you , Im about to die , Im cooking lasanga in crockpot for church dinner tomorow and it smells so good ... Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 2002 Report Share Posted August 12, 2002 Oh thanks. I just found this post with the recipe. lol Tina ) Re: I forgot to tell you... CrockPot Lasanga! 1 and 1/2 lb of hamburger 28oz of spagetti sauce box of lasanga noodles 2 pounds of ricotta cheese 2 eggs 3/4 cup of parmesan cheese 2 cups of mozzerella 1/2 tablespoon of oregano brown beef and drain - add sauce to beef In a bowl mix the eggs, riccotta cheese , pamesan, mozerella and oregano . In crockpot layer your items starting with the beef and sauce then cheese , then noodles ( uncooked) , repeat layers cook on laow for about 7 hours .. its yummy ... and easy .. make yourown additions Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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