Guest guest Posted November 22, 2008 Report Share Posted November 22, 2008 Count me in for ADD- not 'fully diagnosed' but I do have ADD tendencies. Can't concentrate, or OVER concentrate- i can start reading a book and the 4 kids will be screaming at each other in front of me and I can hear nothing but what is going on in my head. i leave things in every room of the house as I walk from room to room trying to recall why I was in there in the first place. I have a hard time focusing on some conversations. But thats only with family members- not with outside friends. hhmmm.. something to research. My NADA did all the thinking for me as well. And was a control- neat freak. We would wash our hands in the bathroom, wipe our hands on the hand towel, then she would walk in 2 seconds after to straighten the hand towel. EVERY time. And the house always smelled like bleach. She bleached EVERYTHING. So, when I smell bleach, I think of her. I tried medication, and it made me so jittery I could not handle it. So its possible our ADD is not a physical thing- ADD is a misfiring in the brain and can be alleviated or retrained with medication. I think that our type of 'add behavior' is learned. Does that make sense? For me that is why i beleive the medication did not work. This could be a 'flea' from living with NADA. let me know what you and others think. hugs, cindy > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have discovered that they are ADD. I > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had to be diagnosed as a kid. > I am 41. > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to organize or think for myself, then I went > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to organize myself since I got out of the > Army over 17 years ago. > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track that it has now been registered as an > off road vehicle. > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my doctor thinks I am drug seeking! > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my vicodin script of 30 pills lasts me between > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them are not even consumed by me in that > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental problems that I give one to once in a while. > Gimme a break. > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning to eat and then check my e-mail and > then come to this site and post about this? My oven is sitting in the middle of my kitchen > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to finish. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 22, 2008 Report Share Posted November 22, 2008 Hoo boy that's a big fat " yes. " I was diagnosed as a kid, but at the time they didn't treat unless one was also hyper, which I wasn't. I learned to get by, I loved to read and was smart enough that I didn't have to study for tests to get B's and low A's. Still, I felt like I was skating by on charm and if anyone " found me out " if be through. I found creative outlets like theatre and writing that allowed me to use my " hunter " brain to good use. I didn't go to college right after high school, working for a few years and going to massage school first. massage school was enormously helpful in helping me to understand the different styles of learning, and giving me permission to have quiet fidget toys and take notes in colored pencils. After a few years or working in massage and partying, hard, I realized that I was still operating under the " I don't want to take ritalin because i don't want a drug controlling my brain " while I was " self medicating " with drugs that didn't have street names yet. it was fun, but I thought I'd try the one that might actually help. I continued with the ritalin through college when I knew I'd have to knuckle down a bit. Now that I'm done, I'm off for a variety of reasons, among which is that it begins to lose effectiveness after a few years. You don't have to be a kid to be diagnosed, in fact, it's common for adults to discover their own diagnosis when they have kids who get diagnosed and realize that the symptoms sound awfully familiar. I'm not sure what the connection is between BP parents and ADD/HD, but it would be interesting to investigate. > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have discovered that they are ADD. I > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had to be diagnosed as a kid. > I am 41. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 22, 2008 Report Share Posted November 22, 2008 I find that interesting because I have always noticed that my nada has a short attention span and little patience with tasks that take time to convey or achieve. She is very easily frustrated, and easily bored. Could be ADD! Also, my nada has mentioned that she is somewhat dyslexic, and was forced in elementary school to learn to write with her right hand although she was naturally left-handed. She is good with math, and not so good with reading; she has never read for pleasure. Fortunately, I think Sister and both I dodged a bullet; neither of us have ADD, although my sister says she has a touch of dyslexia. At least, I don't think I have any " Cluster B " pds (thank God) although I do seem to have some traits of avoidant pd, and I sure did pick up " fleas " from nada. But I'm gradually de-flea-ing myself. -Annie > > > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have > discovered that they are ADD. I > > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had > to be diagnosed as a kid. > > I am 41. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 --- I think my sister and I both have ADD (w/o hyperactivity). I am distracted easily, especially by noise, like when I'm trying to work. I get very caught up in reading and will spend an entire day reading when other things need to be done. I'm very unorganized and get overwhelmed with it. My sister is an exaggerated version of all of these and then some. Joanna In WTOAdultChildren1 , " cspace67 " wrote: > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have discovered that they are ADD. I > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had to be diagnosed as a kid. > I am 41. > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to organize or think for myself, then I went > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to organize myself since I got out of the > Army over 17 years ago. > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track that it has now been registered as an > off road vehicle. > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my doctor thinks I am drug seeking! > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my vicodin script of 30 pills lasts me between > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them are not even consumed by me in that > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental problems that I give one to once in a while. > Gimme a break. > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning to eat and then check my e-mail and > then come to this site and post about this? My oven is sitting in the middle of my kitchen > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to finish. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 I've had these symptoms too, I was seeing a psychologist a while back and she said ADD, she also said I had dyslexia, oppositional defiant disorder, food allergies, and about 1/2 dozen other things, and then she wrote a nasty letter back to my GP. Turned out it was stress, my concentration is the first thing to go. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 This may have been brought up already...I'm way behind on posts... I was dx'd with ADD when I was 12...in 1985, before it was trendy. I was again diagnosed, in a different state, at age 16. When I read the criteria and diagnostics, I can definitely see that I fit into that label. However, what I also know is that for a fully accurate diagnosis part of the " suggestions " is that the child/patient have been free from any trauma for the previous 6 months. And that makes me wonder...is the " ADD " that I have *truly* ADD? Or is it a cumulative effect of the extreme stress and the trauma that I was born into? It is hard to focus on a task at hand when one has learned, probably from birth, to be constantly on very high alert for the behaviour of another.. Even as an adult, away from my mother, the more I untangle the damage she did...the more I realize how on alert I am and how that affects my concentration and my ability to follow through on tasks. So I wonder if it is really ADD for me...or if it is the effect of the trauma of being the child of my mother. Ninera > > Subject: Re: KO's with ADD > To: WTOAdultChildren1 > Date: Saturday, November 22, 2008, 5:15 PM > Count me in for ADD- not 'fully diagnosed' but I do > have ADD > tendencies. Can't concentrate, or OVER concentrate- i > can start > reading a book and the 4 kids will be screaming at each > other in > front of me and I can hear nothing but what is going on in > my head. i > leave things in every room of the house as I walk from room > to room > trying to recall why I was in there in the first place. I > have a hard > time focusing on some conversations. But thats only with > family > members- not with outside friends. > hhmmm.. something to research. > > My NADA did all the thinking for me as well. And was a > control- neat > freak. We would wash our hands in the bathroom, wipe our > hands on the > hand towel, then she would walk in 2 seconds after to > straighten the > hand towel. EVERY time. And the house always smelled like > bleach. She > bleached EVERYTHING. So, when I smell bleach, I think of > her. > > I tried medication, and it made me so jittery I could not > handle it. > So its possible our ADD is not a physical thing- ADD is a > misfiring > in the brain and can be alleviated or retrained with > medication. I > think that our type of 'add behavior' is learned. > Does that make > sense? For me that is why i beleive the medication did not > work. This > could be a 'flea' from living with NADA. let me > know what you and > others think. > hugs, > cindy > > > > > > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there > that have > discovered that they are ADD. I > > have suspected that I am for years but always thought > that you had > to be diagnosed as a kid. > > I am 41. > > > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to > organize or think > for myself, then I went > > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to > organize > myself since I got out of the > > Army over 17 years ago. > > > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track > that it has > now been registered as an > > off road vehicle. > > > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my > doctor thinks > I am drug seeking! > > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my > vicodin script > of 30 pills lasts me between > > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them > are not even > consumed by me in that > > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental > problems that I > give one to once in a while. > > Gimme a break. > > > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning > to eat and > then check my e-mail and > > then come to this site and post about this? My oven > is sitting in > the middle of my kitchen > > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to > finish. > > > > > > ------------------------------------ > > Problems? Ask our friendly List Manager for help at > @.... SEND HER ANY POSTS THAT CONCERN YOU; DO > NOT Respond ON THE GROUP. > > To order the KO bible " Stop Walking on > Eggshells, " call 888-35-SHELL () for your > copy. We also refer to “Understanding the Borderline > Mother†(Lawson) and “Surviving the Borderline > Parent,†(Roth) which you can find at any bookstore. > Welcome to the WTO community! > > From Randi Kreger, Owner BPDCentral, WTO Online Community > and author SWOE and the SWOE Workbook. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 Also, I have PTSD, and often some of those symptoms mimic ADD symptoms. > From: leik49832 <leik49832yahoo (DOT) com> > Subject: Re: KO's with ADD > To: WTOAdultChildren1@ yahoogroups. com > Date: Saturday, November 22, 2008, 5:15 PM > Count me in for ADD- not 'fully diagnosed' but I do > have ADD > tendencies. Can't concentrate, or OVER concentrate- i > can start > reading a book and the 4 kids will be screaming at each > other in > front of me and I can hear nothing but what is going on in > my head. i > leave things in every room of the house as I walk from room > to room > trying to recall why I was in there in the first place. I > have a hard > time focusing on some conversations. But thats only with > family > members- not with outside friends. > hhmmm.. something to research. > > My NADA did all the thinking for me as well. And was a > control- neat > freak. We would wash our hands in the bathroom, wipe our > hands on the > hand towel, then she would walk in 2 seconds after to > straighten the > hand towel. EVERY time. And the house always smelled like > bleach. She > bleached EVERYTHING. So, when I smell bleach, I think of > her. > > I tried medication, and it made me so jittery I could not > handle it. > So its possible our ADD is not a physical thing- ADD is a > misfiring > in the brain and can be alleviated or retrained with > medication. I > think that our type of 'add behavior' is learned. > Does that make > sense? For me that is why i beleive the medication did not > work. This > could be a 'flea' from living with NADA. let me > know what you and > others think. > hugs, > cindy > > > > > > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there > that have > discovered that they are ADD. I > > have suspected that I am for years but always thought > that you had > to be diagnosed as a kid. > > I am 41. > > > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to > organize or think > for myself, then I went > > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to > organize > myself since I got out of the > > Army over 17 years ago. > > > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track > that it has > now been registered as an > > off road vehicle. > > > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my > doctor thinks > I am drug seeking! > > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my > vicodin script > of 30 pills lasts me between > > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them > are not even > consumed by me in that > > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental > problems that I > give one to once in a while. > > Gimme a break. > > > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning > to eat and > then check my e-mail and > > then come to this site and post about this? My oven > is sitting in > the middle of my kitchen > > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to > finish. > > > > > > ------------ --------- --------- ------ > > Problems? Ask our friendly List Manager for help at > BPDCentral (DOT) com. SEND HER ANY POSTS THAT CONCERN YOU; DO > NOT Respond ON THE GROUP. > > To order the KO bible " Stop Walking on > Eggshells, " call 888-35-SHELL () for your > copy. We also refer to “Understanding the Borderline > Mother� (Lawson) and “Surviving the Borderline > Parent,� (Roth) which you can find at any bookstore. > Welcome to the WTO community! > > From Randi Kreger, Owner BPDCentral, WTO Online Community > and author SWOE and the SWOE Workbook. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 Funny how society would much rather blame the child, as it were, and diagnose them with ADD and drug them rather than do some real investigating and discover that the child is living a virtual P.O.W. existence, enduring daily psychological torture at the hands of a supposedly loving " parent. " Problem is that abusive parents rarely (if ever) take their kids in for evaluations ( " There's something wrong with this kid, and I need my kid to be perfect, so fix them. " ) But when the mentally ill parent learns that its herself, the nada, who is the main cause of the child's distress (problems eating, sleeping, concentrating, or embarrassing nervous habits, etc.) the nada then declare that the doctor/therapist is an idiot and the child is not helped or (even better) rescued. I think children need to have legal advocates assigned to them at birth, or something. There's got to be something better than just letting the mentally ill and substance abusers have and raise kids. -Annie > > > > > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there > > that have > > discovered that they are ADD. I > > > have suspected that I am for years but always thought > > that you had > > to be diagnosed as a kid. > > > I am 41. > > > > > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to > > organize or think > > for myself, then I went > > > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to > > organize > > myself since I got out of the > > > Army over 17 years ago. > > > > > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track > > that it has > > now been registered as an > > > off road vehicle. > > > > > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my > > doctor thinks > > I am drug seeking! > > > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my > > vicodin script > > of 30 pills lasts me between > > > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them > > are not even > > consumed by me in that > > > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental > > problems that I > > give one to once in a while. > > > Gimme a break. > > > > > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning > > to eat and > > then check my e-mail and > > > then come to this site and post about this? My oven > > is sitting in > > the middle of my kitchen > > > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to > > finish. > > > > > > > > > > > ------------ --------- --------- ------ > > > > Problems? Ask our friendly List Manager for help at > > BPDCentral (DOT) com. SEND HER ANY POSTS THAT CONCERN YOU; DO > > NOT Respond ON THE GROUP. > > > > To order the KO bible " Stop Walking on > > Eggshells, " call 888-35-SHELL () for your > > copy. We also refer to  " Understanding the Borderline > > Mother� (Lawson) and  " Surviving the Borderline > > Parent,� (Roth) which you can find at any bookstore. > > Welcome to the WTO community! > > > > From Randi Kreger, Owner BPDCentral, WTO Online Community > > and author SWOE and the SWOE Workbook. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 > I think children need to have legal advocates assigned to them at > birth, or something. There's got to be something better than just > letting the mentally ill and substance abusers have and raise kids. > -Annie Amen to that Annie, if only. Sometimes I still get a sudden burst of anger that *no one* said anything, no one did anything not even people in a real position to know my nada was " unbalanced " . Who guards the guardians? Sure leave her to raise a child totally on her own with no other adult around....what could go wrong? Part of the problem is that a parent has to be crazy, really obviously out of their friggin' heads crazy before anyone will do anything. Personality disorders are a lot easier to pass off as just an unpleasant aspect of normal behavior - at least the part they let people see in public. In the " Daughters of Madness " book the author says that in some ways people with officially crazy mothers (hallucinating, going out in public undressed) at least get validation of their reality. julie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 I've thought of that too: that it would actually have been " better " for Sister and me if our nada had been worse, ie, less high-functioning, but our nada was/is pretty well in control and would only act out her rages and beat us in private. In public nada was " June Cleaver. " (ie, perfect TV sitcom mom from the 1950's.) When Sister and I were in elementary school and high school, we were never required to strip and shower after gym classes, we stayed fully clothed the whole day so nobody could ever see our bruises and welts. But it was the continuous disapproval, the criticism, the irritability that could switch instantly into smothering sweetness for no apparent reason and then back again that kept us on edge, the never feeling like anything we ever did was good enough, that we could never meet nada's standards of intelligence, competence, talent, beauty, wit, charm, etc., etc., that did the most brutal damage. Sister and I grew up feeling like tragic disappointments to our parents (nada in particular) who were expecting to give birth to a couple of Miss America Pageant winners, apparently. There, that's my whine for the day. All done now! -Annie > > I think children need to have legal advocates assigned to them at > > birth, or something. There's got to be something better than just > > letting the mentally ill and substance abusers have and raise kids. > > -Annie > > Amen to that Annie, if only. Sometimes I still get a sudden burst of > anger that *no one* said anything, no one did anything not even > people in a real position to know my nada was " unbalanced " . Who > guards the guardians? Sure leave her to raise a child totally on her > own with no other adult around....what could go wrong? > > Part of the problem is that a parent has to be crazy, really > obviously out of their friggin' heads crazy before anyone will do > anything. Personality disorders are a lot easier to pass off as just > an unpleasant aspect of normal behavior - at least the part they let > people see in public. In the " Daughters of Madness " book the author > says that in some ways people with officially crazy mothers > (hallucinating, going out in public undressed) at least get > validation of their reality. > > julie > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2008 Report Share Posted November 25, 2008 You know, I often have wondered if I have ADD because I find it impossible at times to concentrate on tasks that take more than a few minutes or follow long coversations. The funny thing is, when the environment gets very stressful, i.e. the night before a test, I can buckle down and do what I need to do- I just can't unless the pressure is on. I get bored quickly at work and at home and am always looking for new projects when things slow down instead of just enjoying the peace. I think that since I was raised under constant stress (waiting for nada's next outburst) that that is the only way I know how to function. As for following conversations, nada used to scream at me for hours on end and I just learned to tune out when she started so maybe that's why I have a tendancy to tune out when conversations are one-sided. > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have discovered that they are ADD. I > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had to be diagnosed as a kid. > I am 41. > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to organize or think for myself, then I went > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to organize myself since I got out of the > Army over 17 years ago. > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track that it has now been registered as an > off road vehicle. > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my doctor thinks I am drug seeking! > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my vicodin script of 30 pills lasts me between > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them are not even consumed by me in that > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental problems that I give one to once in a while. > Gimme a break. > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning to eat and then check my e-mail and > then come to this site and post about this? My oven is sitting in the middle of my kitchen > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to finish. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2008 Report Share Posted November 25, 2008 I wonder about ADD symptoms, myself: I don't think I have it, but, maybe its just that decades of enduring the stress of constant/frequent exposure to a bpd mother has bequeathed me with some of the symptoms. I startle very easily and very strongly at unexpected loud noises and it takes several minutes for my heart rate to go back down. I still bite my nails. I avoid dramatic people and emotional situations, preferring to live very quietly, alone. Although I can concentrate for very long periods on things that interest me (I even " lose " time, 4 hours can pass and I'll not even realize it if I'm reading a good book) but I'm finding it increasingly difficult to pay attention and concentrate on tasks I find boring/onerous/difficult. And I find myself eating too much without even being consciously aware of it, as I usually eat while on the computer. I think my consciousness is on " automatic pilot " too often. Maybe its time for a psychological " tune up. " I need to feel more in control of myself, so I think I need to seek out a therapist whose got a background in treating bpds or (better yet) adult kids of bpds. -Annie > > > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have > discovered that they are ADD. I > > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had > to be diagnosed as a kid. > > I am 41. > > > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to organize or > think for myself, then I went > > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to organize > myself since I got out of the > > Army over 17 years ago. > > > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track that it has > now been registered as an > > off road vehicle. > > > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my doctor > thinks I am drug seeking! > > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my vicodin script > of 30 pills lasts me between > > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them are not even > consumed by me in that > > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental problems that I > give one to once in a while. > > Gimme a break. > > > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning to eat and > then check my e-mail and > > then come to this site and post about this? My oven is sitting in > the middle of my kitchen > > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to finish. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2008 Report Share Posted November 25, 2008 Yep, I fall in the ADD category also. I had no idea until I was 29 years old! My therapist also thinks nada and possibly my dad also have undiagnosed ADD. I wonder how prolific ADD is with KO's and if there's a correlation there? I wish I had known this going through school, perhaps if I had been medicated sooner I might have been able to concentrate for more than 0.2 seconds! I had to learn everything on my own time though textbooks. NOTHING STUCK in lectures. I was especially bad at math; however my IQ is supposedly 122 or so. I suppose that explains how intelligent people can do poorly in certain subject at school. Of course nada never noticed or cared there was a problem. Her response, " Oh I failed at math too, so don't worry abut it. " Thanks nada, keep the bar low and you'll never be disappointed!! Lol > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have discovered that they are ADD. I > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had to be diagnosed as a kid. > I am 41. > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to organize or think for myself, then I went > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to organize myself since I got out of the > Army over 17 years ago. > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track that it has now been registered as an > off road vehicle. > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my doctor thinks I am drug seeking! > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my vicodin script of 30 pills lasts me between > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them are not even consumed by me in that > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental problems that I give one to once in a while. > Gimme a break. > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning to eat and then check my e-mail and > then come to this site and post about this? My oven is sitting in the middle of my kitchen > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to finish. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 26, 2008 Report Share Posted November 26, 2008 I also have wondering about ADD. Years ago I listened to a cassette about a mother who was dealing with her ADD child and suddenly realized that her child was just like her and that she had ADD. She had listed many things which I definitely had identified with growing up and going to school. I remembered bringing it to the attention of a counselor I had been seeing and his response was ... " if you can write a letter then you don't have ADD " . I find myself constantly starting projects at home or at work and never completing anything. I get bored really easily and have to have at least three things going at one time in order to complete any tasks. I have to stop myself and do a little self talking like " Okay, you cannot begin anything else until you finish this, that & the other thing. "  If I don't self talk and  have too much going on, I become overwhelmed and paralyzed and can't complete anything. I discovered BPD about 6 months ago and it just consumed me. I've been reading everything I can online. All my life I had never understood what I did to set nada off. I can't believe I am in my late 50's, have been going to therapists since I was in my 20's and not one therapist ever even mentioned BPD to me. Everything I had said about my mother and every thing I felt about myself I have read in these posts and on another Non BPD group. I have felt anger, sadness, enlightment  and a zillion other emotions these past months. When I had mentioned it to my therapist she brushed it off and warned me to be careful what I read online. When I had mentioned it to the psychiatric nurse who prescribes antidepressants for me (who is also my mother's doctor) she blew me off saying your mother doesn't have BPD. I left feeling so unvalidated and decided I don't really care what they say or think. I now know what I know and reading what everyone writes has helped me more than any counselor or therapist has in over 30 years. This group is great. ________________________________ To: WTOAdultChildren1 Sent: Tuesday, November 25, 2008 12:12:58 PM Subject: Re: KO's with ADD You know, I often have wondered if I have ADD because I find it impossible at times to concentrate on tasks that take more than a few minutes or follow long coversations. The funny thing is, when the environment gets very stressful, i.e. the night before a test, I can buckle down and do what I need to do- I just can't unless the pressure is on. I get bored quickly at work and at home and am always looking for new projects when things slow down instead of just enjoying the peace. I think that since I was raised under constant stress (waiting for nada's next outburst) that that is the only way I know how to function. As for following conversations, nada used to scream at me for hours on end and I just learned to tune out when she started so maybe that's why I have a tendancy to tune out when conversations are one-sided. > > I am curious...are there any other KO's out there that have discovered that they are ADD. I > have suspected that I am for years but always thought that you had to be diagnosed as a kid. > I am 41. > > Nada was such a control freak that I never had to organize or think for myself, then I went > into the Army...same there. Have been struggling to organize myself since I got out of the > Army over 17 years ago. > > My train of thought spends so much time off the track that it has now been registered as an > off road vehicle. > > Of course ADD is such a popular diagnosis now that my doctor thinks I am drug seeking! > Yeah right. I have a mildly herniated disc and my vicodin script of 30 pills lasts me between > 18 months and two years! Oh and at least ten of them are not even consumed by me in that > time. I have a neighbor that has severe dental problems that I give one to once in a while. > Gimme a break. > > Did I mention that I stopped in the middle of cleaning to eat and then check my e-mail and > then come to this site and post about this? My oven is sitting in the middle of my kitchen > with my vacuum sitting beside it waiting for me to finish. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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