Guest guest Posted November 24, 2008 Report Share Posted November 24, 2008 First, myself. I deserve to be happy, to have a happy marriage and to have myself. The most important thing to me right now is to know myself and be true to myself. I want to do what is best for me; I want to take good care of myself. I am God-bearing just like everyone else. I need to be good to me. I need to be able to recognize my own needs and meet them for myself. This is my primary goal. I will need God's help to do this. Secondly, I am not in charge or control of anyone else. Nor am I responsible for anyone else. We all have to take responsibility to meet our own needs. I am unable to take responsibility for anyone else's happiness any longer. Other's happiness can not be based on whether or not I come through for them in the way they would like me to. I would like to have relationships with significant people in my life; these relationships need to be based on respect for my independent, individual personhood. More specifically, I need to have the freedom to recognize what I need to do, and I need the freedom to do it without fear. The fear is my part. No one can put fear on me except for me. Fear shows up in my life when I worry about disappointing others. In the past, this fear has been coupled with almost debilitating anxiety and dark, deep depression. It is also coupled with guilt becuase I feel like I need to make others' lives happy. I feel like I am not doing my job as a human being if others' are disappointed in my behavior. Respecting my personhood is your part. I will no longer be in relationships where I cannot be respected as an individual. You have the perogative to dissagree with my decisions, however, I will no longer feel guilt, fear, or anxiety after making the decisions I need to make. If you would like to have a relationship with me, you need to realize that I am a piece of humanity. I will make mistakes. I will piss you off. I will not always do what you want me to do. In fact, I may only seldom or never do what you want me to do. After all, I am not a trainable animal. I am not going to be the possession you take ownership of and train any longer. I am untrainable, ungroundable, unguiltable. In spite of, and maybe more accurately becuase of, all of my faults and shortcomings, I am a beautiful, courageous, kind, unique, spectacular individual. I hope that you can see that in me. It is most important to me that I see that in myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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