Funny Nada Moments Bring Sadness (Was Truly Funny Moments with Nada)

[Guest guest]

Katrina;

I understand the sadness. I think, at least for me, when I consider my

childhood, it is sad. (Sadder than I remember because I blocked so much out.) We

were after all, kids - who didn't for the most part get any consolation for the

things kids suffer, like even a bump or bruise, or someone being mean to us on

the playground. (I usually was blamed for anything and everything bad that

happened to me, which is why when I was molested in the school hallway when I

was 11, I never even thought to tell my mother. Nowadays, those boys would have

been put in counselling and so would I.)

There is also anger - which as a child I couldn't have even begun to process -

that it was NADA and NOT ME who was " the one. " As the song " Psycho " by Puddle of

Mud calmly says initially, " Maybe I'm the one, maybe I'm the one who is the

schizophrenic psycho... " and then toward the end of the song, in a powerfully

angry voice screams: " You're the one who is the schizophrenic psycho. " This

resonates with me - even though the song is about a man who has a relationship

with a mentally ill woman; the story is the same: who is " the one. " That line in

that song always brings me to tears and I sometimes yell along with the singer.

A childhood and over half a lifetime struggling with these thoughts bring me

deep sadness.

The Light Bulb Effect, first in my child's therapist's office, then hearing the

song " Psycho " (fortunately on the radio, so it was an edited version, apparently

there is some swearing) and then finding this group - has brought it all

together for me in a very positive way. It is as if I found the bottom of the

pit and it's a terrible pit where I am overwhelmingly sad, yet I am looking up

and realizing that I can get out and when I do, my life will have a joy and

understanding yet unknown.

Flowers in Oz

----- Original Message -----

Thanks for sharing this with us. My nada has a wonderful sense of humor, when

she is in her more balanced days. ...

It is weird that your post made me rather sad though...

A chat moments ago with my sister has reminded

me of some very

funny things that our nada would do or say.

[Guest guest]

Flowers on their way out of Oz... thank you for these sensitive

lines. You write beautifully and truthfully about the black pit out

of which you are growing now to blossom like pink and blue flowers. I

wish you all the best - please continue to post here and share your

valuable view on being a KO. Katrina

A chat moments ago with my sister has

reminded me of some very

> funny things that our nada would do or say.

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