Guest guest Posted December 1, 2008 Report Share Posted December 1, 2008 It definitely sounds like you could use a break from your foo. You can make something up if you want, but you don't have to lie. Just tell them you won't be coming around for a while. You said you wanted to " cover my ass...so this split wouldn't happen. " Do you realize that your mother is going to split you one way or the other NO MATTER WHAT you do? You might as well do things that have positive effects on your well-being instead of remaining enslaved to her reactions. Power over HER splitting isn't in your hands, it's in hers. You can't control it or prevent it. Just take care of yourself for a while. kt > > Last night at the nursing home - when my nada started her usual > crap. And then I did stuff to cover my ass. Cause you know what? I > knew what was coming - Im of course split bad now - rang to again - > cover my ass - so this split wouldnt happen. I rang - at a time i > knew my nsister and her son were there in the room and the frosty > tone - Im so f.in sick of this shit. Im so angry at this shit. Im so > f,in nice to that bitch. > > And you know what? IN the past last night would have been pinned on > me - not only by my nada, but my fucker of a npd father would have > blamed my nadas shit on me - all my whole fucking life. Im so > fucking angry. > > What do I do now? HOw do I avoid this bad splitting - how do I cope > with it? And this is before chemo? I cant cope with her - no one > would believe this shit and what the hell do I do? > > Do I come up with some excuse that I cant visist. Yes I think so an > interview in another part of the country - scare her into stopping > the abuse so she thinks Im moving away. > > Ok - thats what I'll do. Say I have to travel overnight to an > interview cant visit for a few days. > > OK - I have to control my anger towards her. Usually I take it out > on myself. I just cant wait till they are no longer in my life at > all. > > I got so angry this morning when I realised that in the past my npd > father would have abused me totally - for my nadas mood and then my > nada would pull this SOP anyway. Fuck them all. Bastards for what > theyve done to me my whole life. > > Im NOT rewarding her with a visit for this shit 0- no fucking way > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 2, 2008 Report Share Posted December 2, 2008 Sounds like a break is over due indeed. Happyout, I hope you will back up and try and regain some space and sanity for yourself. Sounds like your parents are the poster children for personality disorders. Keep your chin up, and remember IT'S NOT YOU! It's worse than a bad break up isn't it? > > Last night at the nursing home - when my nada started her usual > crap. And then I did stuff to cover my ass. Cause you know what? I > knew what was coming - Im of course split bad now - rang to again - > cover my ass - so this split wouldnt happen. I rang - at a time i > knew my nsister and her son were there in the room and the frosty > tone - Im so f.in sick of this shit. Im so angry at this shit. Im so > f,in nice to that bitch. > > And you know what? IN the past last night would have been pinned on > me - not only by my nada, but my fucker of a npd father would have > blamed my nadas shit on me - all my whole fucking life. Im so > fucking angry. > > What do I do now? HOw do I avoid this bad splitting - how do I cope > with it? And this is before chemo? I cant cope with her - no one > would believe this shit and what the hell do I do? > > Do I come up with some excuse that I cant visist. Yes I think so an > interview in another part of the country - scare her into stopping > the abuse so she thinks Im moving away. > > Ok - thats what I'll do. Say I have to travel overnight to an > interview cant visit for a few days. > > OK - I have to control my anger towards her. Usually I take it out > on myself. I just cant wait till they are no longer in my life at > all. > > I got so angry this morning when I realised that in the past my npd > father would have abused me totally - for my nadas mood and then my > nada would pull this SOP anyway. Fuck them all. Bastards for what > theyve done to me my whole life. > > Im NOT rewarding her with a visit for this shit 0- no fucking way > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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