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Hi. Im 36 with three children. I have two very close friends, and

they both have implants. I sooo need them more than both of them

(I'm completely flat). Every time we get together, I see how nice

their boobs look, and want the same for myself!! I want to stay

friends with them but I feel so depressed after I leave them, and I

feel my husband is missing out on something by me not having

georgous breasts. The more I see my friends and how they look, the

more I want them. My one friend always says how beautiful I would

be with boobs (I guess I am ugly now????). After I leave them, I

spend the whole time driving home saying I " ve had it and I am just

going to do it! I keep getting more and more disgusted and

tempted. However, my brain is telling me that there is no logical

way in the world that these things are safe. In the meantime, I am

becoming more and more self-conscious and depressed over how I look.

I cannot even jog in a sports bra because I am embarrassed over how

flat I am, and dread beaches. It just doesnt seem fair that all of

these women have beautiful boobs and I can have the same thing so

easily. Can anyone offer me any advice or encouragement.

Thank you,

--- In , Dawnsusan <dawnsusan@...>

wrote:

>

> At a party last night with my neighbors on the block. It's a very

close

> knit group of families. My girlfriends on the block all knew when

I was

> getting my implants -- they were all excited for me. One neighbor

has

> them already and, with the exception of a switchout in size due to

a

> rupture from trauma, she has experienced no problems and is

currently

> breastfeeding a daughter. My other four neighbors all want them.

They

> were very curious when I went through my implant surgery last

year.

> Well, I told them all they are coming out next week and why. My

friend

> with the implants is treating me like I am nuts, which is okay --

I pray

> that her daughter does not have problems with having been

breastfed. A

> few others are fine-- I don't need them to be supportive, but they

are

> -- mostly sympathetic. One had already made an appt with a doc

for a

> consultation and has cancelled it and won't get them because of my

> experience (Yay! I helped someone!)

>

> But my one friend is getting them next year. She told me what a

shame

> it is that I am getting mine out, what a waste of money, and that

she

> doesn't care if I have problems. She's getting them at all

costs. She

> said she won't be the kind of woman who has problems ( which is

exactly

> what I told myself ) as it is probably a personality type and

partially

> in the head anyway. I wanted to shake her until her teeth

rattled.

> She's got a nice husband, and two kids, plus she runs a business

that is

> becoming very successful. I'm going to print out a few things for

her

> in a month or so, before the boobie greed hits her full force and

she

> starts the research stage -- that's the point where we all became

deaf

> and ignored our gut instincts, right?

>

> All night long she kept saying -- but you LOOK great now, why

would you

> want to go back to what you were? I was quite flat and droopy.

> How can you hear the kind of stuff I told her last night ( all the

docs,

> pain, urgent care visits, cardiac problems, not being able to

work,

> CONSTANT pain, that fake sickening feeling when my muscles flex,

(did I

> mention the constant pain?)low grade fevers, (which I had last

night, on

> my birthday!), not being able to get up easily from the lawn

chair, not

> being able to straighten my knees, and of course, the unremitting,

> constant pain, and all of this coming on suddenly to a previously

> perfectly healthy athlete's body.

>

> " IT'S JUST SALTWATER!!!! "

>

> It's easy to dismiss me as a mental case when there is an

absolutely

> beautiful woman sitting next to me with a lovely boob job,

shrugging,

> saying that she hasn't had a problem, and they were the best thing

she

> has ever done.

>

>

> Arrrrrrggghhhhhh!

> Dawn

>