Walking ---> Disassociating

[Guest guest]

Disassociating for me was basically being numb in my entire body.  I could also

tune out sounds and basically everything going on and float above or around my

own body. 

 

On another note - I live with PTSD as well.  Long term.  It's taken me 4 years

of therapy and wonderful husband to negotiate it but I'm starting to feel a lot

better and finally putting a name to what in the hell was wrong with my mother

was a good step in the right direction.  It really helped me start to heal when

I began to understand - but the PTSD remains. 

 

I must also include, however, that I am a sexual abuse survivor beginning at age

3.  I also suffered the first type of PTSD according to my psych bc of the

brutality involved in some of the incidents when I was 3, 4, 5 & 6.  My nada

used every incident to solicit comfort for (get this) her 'child that attracted

evil'.  Nada will not mention she was leaving her little girl with any stranger

on a street corner she could find ... literally.  It was her 'evil child's

fault. 

 

Trust me ... PTSD mangles your head sometimes, but with good support it's much

easier to navigate.  My sincerest wishes to you -

[Guest guest]

I couldn't find the original message for this, but I'm intrigued

because I think I've seen my brother do this. He just tunes out. One

time I left the house and he was seemingly watching tv. When I came

home he was in the exact same spot, the tv was on the same channel

and the house was completely dark because it had gotten dark out

while I was gone. Whatever was on tv was totally something he would

never watch. It was like an informercial or something but he

obviously wasn't even aware of it. He does it all the time. Does that

mean he has ptsd or is he just coping with stress or what? Sometimes

he'll smile when he does it, like he's thinking of something nice. Is

he just escaping to another place?

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> Disassociating for me was basically being numb in my entire body. 

I could also tune out sounds and basically everything going on and

float above or around my own body. 

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> On another note - I live with PTSD as well.  Long term.  It's taken

me 4 years of therapy and wonderful husband to negotiate it but I'm

starting to feel a lot better and finally putting a name to what in

the hell was wrong with my mother was a good step in the right

direction.  It really helped me start to heal when I began to

understand - but the PTSD remains. 

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> I must also include, however, that I am a sexual abuse survivor

beginning at age 3.  I also suffered the first type of PTSD according

to my psych bc of the brutality involved in some of the incidents

when I was 3, 4, 5 & 6.  My nada used every incident to solicit

comfort for (get this) her 'child that attracted evil'.  Nada will

not mention she was leaving her little girl with any stranger on a

street corner she could find ... literally.  It was her 'evil child's

fault. 

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> Trust me ... PTSD mangles your head sometimes, but with good

support it's much easier to navigate.  My sincerest wishes to you -

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[Guest guest]

That sounds very worrisome to me; it is not normal at all. He could be

severely depressed, or on drugs, or having some kind of psychotic

break with reality where he truly does go into a different part of his

mind to escape.

And the fact that he does it " all the time " is extremely worrisome.

If your brother is 18, I think he is too old to be taken away by child

protective services, but, maybe if you consult with them they can give

you some advice on what to do. Or, maybe consult with a psychologist

and see if they have any ideas.

In any case, I think he needs to be rescued from nada.

-Annie

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> > Disassociating for me was basically being numb in my entire body. 

> I could also tune out sounds and basically everything going on and

> float above or around my own body. 

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> > On another note - I live with PTSD as well.  Long term.  It's taken

> me 4 years of therapy and wonderful husband to negotiate it but I'm

> starting to feel a lot better and finally putting a name to what in

> the hell was wrong with my mother was a good step in the right

> direction.  It really helped me start to heal when I began to

> understand - but the PTSD remains. 

> >  

> > I must also include, however, that I am a sexual abuse survivor

> beginning at age 3.  I also suffered the first type of PTSD according

> to my psych bc of the brutality involved in some of the incidents

> when I was 3, 4, 5 & 6.  My nada used every incident to solicit

> comfort for (get this) her 'child that attracted evil'.  Nada will

> not mention she was leaving her little girl with any stranger on a

> street corner she could find ... literally.  It was her 'evil child's

> fault. 

> >  

> > Trust me ... PTSD mangles your head sometimes, but with good

> support it's much easier to navigate.  My sincerest wishes to you -

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[Guest guest]

That's funny. I was trying to find the original message to this too.

I do use TV to knock myself out, and food.

But the main thing I wanted to say is how as an adult, I had to forget

about the woman who raised me. In order to maintain a relationship

with her, I had to think of her as different as the woman who raised me.

And she WAS different, to an extent. She went from primarily

controlling me with rage to using waify tears.

I was telling my BF how I had to think of her as a different person (I

blamed it on her hating her job when I was a kid), because I HATED

that woman. How could I maintain a relationship with someone who

burned me with an iron on purpose?

You can't. And imagine how messed up that is for us to have to stuff

those feelings down forever in an attempt to keep the peace. That

cannot be good for our mental health!

-Deanna

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> > Disassociating for me was basically being numb in my entire body.

> I could also tune out sounds and basically everything going on and

> float above or around my own body.

> >

> > On another note - I live with PTSD as well. Long term. It's taken

> me 4 years of therapy and wonderful husband to negotiate it but I'm

> starting to feel a lot better and finally putting a name to what in

> the hell was wrong with my mother was a good step in the right

> direction. It really helped me start to heal when I began to

> understand - but the PTSD remains.

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> > I must also include, however, that I am a sexual abuse survivor

> beginning at age 3. I also suffered the first type of PTSD according

> to my psych bc of the brutality involved in some of the incidents

> when I was 3, 4, 5 & 6. My nada used every incident to solicit

> comfort for (get this) her 'child that attracted evil'. Nada will

> not mention she was leaving her little girl with any stranger on a

> street corner she could find ... literally. It was her 'evil child's

> fault.

> >

> > Trust me ... PTSD mangles your head sometimes, but with good

> support it's much easier to navigate. My sincerest wishes to you -

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