Re: Re: Cherished Holiday Memories-Katrina-

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Oh' Katrina!

 

You might win this one so far.

 

As a person with a mother in law as a nada... I gotta say, try to enjoy the

holidays for your own good. you desearve it! we can't let these bpd's continue

to ruin the fun for the rest of us. thats easier said then done.. i know. but

esp. for you & the rest of your family, i hope you find a little peace this

season.

 

my husband has always hated holidays & I try to hard to get him into it. but

thats easy for me to say, since i am going n/c with her.

 

 

nerak

 

Subject: Re: Cherished Holiday Memories!

To: WTOAdultChildren1

Date: Monday, December 22, 2008, 7:21 PM

Holidays the bpd way... Oh yes I have had many! Both my sister and I

feel very ambivalent towards Christmas bc of all the bad memories

that cling to it.

I still carry the traces of one such event on my body. There was a

Christmas celebration with my aunt's family one year, I was about

eigth or nine years old. After they've left, my mother starts raging,

I don't remember the reason, if there was any. We are together

cleaning up the mess from the dinner together and so, and outside she

smashes some of our christmas presents into thousands of pieces.

There were two little snowmen out of glass and they lay on the stone

yard, shattered into thousands of pieces of glass. I crouched and

started to clean up the pieces because she ordered me to do so. I am

sobbing uncontrolled because I am so disappointed about the Christmas

all gone wrong; and that irritates her also because of 'what will the

neighbors say?' and she makes a sudden movement to slap me into my

face or on my head. Because I am crouching on my feet, and because of

the sudden move and the slapping that I try to avoid, I lose my

balance and sit down with my knees into the broken glass. And I still

have the scars of that night. Pain and disillusion, that sums up many

of my Christmas experiences.

Another one is, I was much older, already 17 or so, when she did not

want to do anything for X-mas and I decided to try to make up for it

all and prepared a festive dinner with salmon; and when we were

sitting at the table she walked in pale as a ghost and with her

dangerous gaze, and threw all the food into the garbage bin, without

a word.

Another one, again a Christmas that she decided we would not have,

and yet I tried and brought home a big and beautiful Christmas tree,

and my welcoming when she opened the door and saw the tree was --

well, guess what? ... I don't need to tell.

This year, it's different and yet she managed to create crisis once

more. Last Friday, my father came home earlier than expected and just

like in the bad soap series on TV, found out on my mother and her

lover, in his own house...

Yeah, yeah, Merry, merry Christmas, like every year...

Very much fed up with it. Feeling like throwing all my Christmas

decorations out of the window right now. Anyone joining me??

Katrina

>

> Greetings, all!

>

> I thought, with the holidays upon us, it would be fun to start a

thread of the nuttiest nada holiday antics. What's the worst, most

insanely outrageous thing your nada ever said or did to ruin a

holiday event?

>

> For me, it would be the Christmas Eve dinner about 6 years back

when my nada became engaged in a screaming political argument with my

(now-ex) H, called him a " f***ing a**hole " at the top of her lungs

(IN FRONT OF MY YOUNG SON and a table-full of guests) -- and had to

be PHYSICALLY THROWN out of my house.

>

> Merry Christmas!

>

> Best,

>

> S

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