Re: [SPAM?] Troubles with friendships

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I struggle very much, too. I'm starting to make some good friends - after

living here for 9 years. But it's hard not to wait for the 'other shoe to

drop'. Just last week I struggled because I was having a hard time with

nada and I felt like I was wearing my only local girl-friend out. She says

I'm not, but I don't believe her. It's hard to let anyone inside. I feel

like they will think I'm too needy and pathetic if I really let my guard

down. But I think it's possible that it's only me projecting my

insecurities onto my friends - that they really do love me and care. It

would be hard not to project those fears.

I think I'm just going to say 'screw it' and get happy, damn it. I'm just

about strong enough to tell anyone else who doesn't like it to get screwed

themselves!! LOL

Bridget Lindsey

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Acquisitions & Divestitures

HighMount Exploration & Production LLC

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[sPAM?] Troubles with friendships

I am struggling for the moment with friendships. I feel like their

feelings

about me can change instantly. What if I say too much? What if I act too

needy? I struggle with this so much and trust no one. Very few people have

made it into my " inner circle " and I feel love me unconditionally. (four?)

Does anyone else have this problem? If so, how do you cope?

I always feel lie I am 'better off' and 'safer' when I am alone. I rarely

get lonely. I always have something to read or a project to work on or

building my business.... but I know that when I can spend time with people

and NOT be scared I am happier than when I am alone, but when I AM scared,

it feels so awful.

Maybe it is just all of this time stuck at work, alone in a room, covering

for people who celebrate Christmas (11-11 wednesday, yesterday and today!)

Shari