UPDATE; Re: Cry for attention? Total disregard? Suicide coming soon?

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I had a " emergency phone meeting " with therapist this morning over

this (and a couple of other things regarding Nada). Therapist told

me it is UNSAFE for me or my son to be in the car with Nada. That

Nada is determined to derail me as she cries for attention and this

will escalate to the point of injury or death of me and/or mine.

I feel horrible.

How can a MOTHER hate herself and her child so bad that she'll do

THIS to get her way?

I'm working hard to get to the self-preservation stage and not caring

stage...

WHY IS THAT PART BROKEN IN ME????

Sniff.

Lynnette

>

> Last night's " car trip " with Nada.

>

> Did some local shopping with Nada. She drove. She was " sad " last

> night (didn't know THAT before I went with her...). In a dense fog,

> going up a dark rural freeway she decides to play " sad music " . She

> starts driving off the road because she has her eyes closed.

> OMG!!!! " MOTHER OPEN YOUR EYES AND STAY ON THE ROAD "

>

> Her reply, " Oh yeah, I guess I should... "

>

> A few months ago she drove off an embankment and landed her car

> several feed down, sideways. Wasn't seriously injured and her car

> is " ok " . Has a load of bumps, dings, dents, etc. from " not her fault

> incidents " .

>

> It scares the bejeebies out of me but last night really sent it over

> the edge.

>

> Lynnette

>