Hi -- Need some support

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Hi Ladies,

It has been quite a while since my last post, but I still try to

read some of the posts. I got saline under the muscle textured

implants in 2000. I had my implants removed by Dr Feng in March of

this year. The reason that I am posting tonight is I need some

emotional support. I am really down about my looks and can't seem

to shake the way I feel. I feel like I have been on an emotional

rollar coaster since my explant. I had a while this spring/summer

when I was so angry. But now I just feel really depressed. I

started working out regularly in August. You would think I would be

happy about the results I am getting, but I just feel so down. I am

getting really defined muscles, but just don't feel good about my

looks. My breasts are so small since explant -- a whole size

smaller than before implant. I got a lift and can't imagine what it

would be like without. I barely fill out an A cup size now. I now

have a hard time finding clothes styles that compliment my figure.

I have a hard time looking in the mirror. I know this sounds

vain... but I used to get compliments on a regular basis when I had

implants. Comments like you are in such good shape, you look great

for being a mother of 3, etc. Since explant the only thing I have

heard is you look like you lost weight -- are you okay. I am now

dealing with all the reasons that I got implants in the first

place. I know that my health suffered from having implants, so

please don't misunderstand what I am saying. I am not in anyway for

implants. I just really need to hear from someone that I am not

alone in the way I feel. This has been a lot to deal with in such a

short time -- emotionally, physcially, financially, etc.

Thanks for listening. Marcy