Re: For Miriam ...

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--- In , " Ilena Rose " <colibrimama@...>

wrote:

> I am going to share this with our wonderful Saline Support Group,

Miriam ...

> I believe you will find some excellent support there.

Dear Miriam, with every word you use to describe the circular,

obsessive content of your thought processes, you reveal the true agony

of your situation. Right now you are in a stuck place of such pain

and inability to free yourself, that your _breast implants_ are not

the issue on the table. I'm sure what I am saying makes no sense to

you right now. I very rarely give advice. But I feel, as a mental

health nurse and a woman who has herself been in a place like the one

you are in right now, that I must tell you to get the name of a

well-trained, wise, and experienced therapist who can help you find

yourself out of the maze you are lost in. Then and only then will you

be able to deal with the other issues 'on your plate,' such as your

_total lack of interest_ in life, your grand-daughter in whom you

_apparently have interest,_ and the reasons for your being so _down._

It would be wise to see your medical doctor as well to determine if

any of this is being caused by a medical condition, such as hormonal

imbalance, thyroid problems, 'sleep apnea,' or some other far out

sounding broken body issue. The therapist will deal with you with the

brokeness of your mind and spirit. I feel strongly that this is an

emergency, Miriam. You must act to get some help. You have been

trying to help yourself but you're not suceeding. This is a time to

reach out and get some help from others; you will have to fight heavy

resistance to doing this from yourself. But this is one of those

battles in life that you must win. So, do it! You have my very best

wishes for your healing. Please keep in touch with us. DIANA

> ---------- Forwarded message ----------

> From: MIRIAM NOVAK <miriamnovak@...>

> Date: Nov 9, 2006 3:55 PM

> Subject: SUPPORT

> ilena@...

>snip< I am biding time with absolutley no interest in life. I

> have grand daughter that i want to go see, but I do not really do

anything

> about making that happen because a big part of me does not want to

see her

> like this because I am always so down.

> Looking forward to hearing from you soon, hopfuly!

>

> Miriam

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Hi Miriam, I hesitate to give advice like you should go right out and get your breast implants removed because everyone is different. There seem to be women that are just fine with the implants while others have problems and see improvement once they are removed. I had saline breast implants put in in Jan of 1999. Starting in 2002 or 2003 I began to get tired just around my monthly period. From there, I began to have more days where I was wiped out and I started to have pain. I also started getting confused a lot and never could find the right word for things. I had my implants removed Aug of 2006 and now I have started to feel better. I have to say though, right before they were removed, I wanted to die. I felt terrible all of the time. I had pain all over. My arms hurt, my neck was stiff all of the time, my hips and thighs hurt, my feet hurt to walk on them and when I would stand up after sitting for even a short while, my lower back

felt like it was going to break when I tried to straighten up. I have gained so much weight and am just now getting back into working out. Before I started getting sick, I worked out 5 or 6 days a week and felt great. I must say, right before the removal surgery, I didn't care what I would look like. I was just desperate to feel better. I would suggest before you do anything, you go see a doctor (a general practitioner maybe) and talk to them about your depression and maybe start on an anti-depressant. I know you said you didn't like to take medicine, but I feel you have to get your depression under control before you even think of investigating what may be wrong with you physically. I would also have them run tests for thryroid problems, blood sugar levels and the general blood tests they usually run. This group has been VERY helpful to me. If I were you, I wouldn't hesitate to ask any question or say anything here about how you are feeling. There have been a lot of days

when I have felt better after reading the emails from these ladies. God Bless Ilena Rose <colibrimama@...> wrote: I am going to share this with our wonderful Saline Support Group, Miriam ... I believe you will find some excellent support there.---------- Forwarded message ---------- From: MIRIAM NOVAK <miriamnovaksbcglobal (DOT) net>Date: Nov 9, 2006 3:55 PMSubject: SUPPORTilenahumanticsfoundation Hi, I am fifty two years old. I had my first saline breast implants 3 years ago. I was dissappointed with the first one. they were too small, they were not much diffeerent than before i had the procedure. I then paid for a second one, I went from 250cc to 350cc,s. they seemed huge. they were clear up to my collar bone. I asked the nurse of my doctor a month down the road if the swelling would go down. She said because of it being my second procedure the swelling would not go down much. And then said you said you wanted them bigger, you should be careful of what you ask for. I was so self conscious and embarassed trying to hide myself. At four months

post the surgery i went to another doctor and said I felt I was too big and wanted to be not so big. I asked if they are still swollen from surgery. He said they shouldn't be. He wanted to bring me to 275cc's from a 350cc implant. I made a point of saying i did not want to be too small and would like to go to 300cc's. He said no 275 or he will not do it. Well after 6 months they are too small and I have been having for the past 2 years since that surgery, major depression, anxiety,anger, stressed badly, and now I am also having alot of tension in my neck and jaw area. In fact my jaws now at times seem to lock up on me when i get tense or upset, which is quite often. I feel that I have changed so much, my personality. I am always depressed, angry, tired to the point of nautious. I feel my health has gone down so much in the past 2 years since i had this done and cannot say if it is the implants or

the dissappointment of the outcome of the implants. I feel in the past 2 years I have aged probably at least 10 years. I don't know if it is life's circumstances or if it is related to the actual implants after reading a couple of these stories of other women's experiences. I am now at a very low point and have been on and off contemplating suicide for a year now. I feel no one can help me or understand me I have become more self conscious of my appearance than ever and hate the thought of being in public at all. I am but I hate every minute of it. I used to be a very loving, caring, fun, wholsome, carefree person with alot of energy. I am not that any more. And it bothers me tht I cannot get myself back. I would love to hear from you if you have any word of advice to me if I have just gone crazy beyond the point of no return or if there is help for me out there. I do not want to take any medication

because my body has always been sooo sensitive. I do want to get better and be happy again but i cannot make it happen. I am biding time with absolutley no interest in life. I have grand daughter that i want to go see, but I do not really do anything about making that happen because a big part of me does not want to see her like this because I am always so down. Looking forward to hearing from you soon, hopfuly! Miriam

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