Guest guest Posted December 16, 2008 Report Share Posted December 16, 2008 I read an article recently about what people know for sure- great read. Being a daughter of a BP- I know for sure that being raised by a BP makes you at times a reflection of who you really are. You were raised to not believe in yourself- but in who nada told you, you were and were not. I feel so fragmented by the roles in my life, especially as her daughter, and his wife. It all started by being her daughter. She made me feel never good enough or right. So I second guess everything I do. I also don't trust my perceptions for years- I was told they were not correct- unless they agreed with nada. I either trust too much or not enough- no balance. Usually when I trust too much- I get hurt. So balancing boundaries are huge for me. I also associate pain with love- because I assume my nada does love me, but she brought lots of pain into my life. So I stay with an abusive husband- who I also thinks love me. I hate being such a fragmented human being- but I know for sure that is what I am. Blessing to all of you who too feel fragmented, but like me work each on being more whole. Malinda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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