Moments of Dispear

[Guest guest]

don't leave us, I am always crying even if it's deep within my soul

We all have our moments of dispear and we are all in this mess together

I was in so much pain the minute I was implanted

I never once enjoyed my new look for all three years they were in me

All that money went into destroying my health and leaving me partially crippled

No wonder why most of us go through some degree of depression

I am going to have to depend on my plastic surgeon to remove these capsules

I am hoping that he will handle me with the best of care/knowlege and remove everything correctly this time

I cannot afford Dr. Kolb because I am a single mom

and only have been able to work part time since I was implanted

I am listening to Shari talk about the weight she feels in her breasts

Which has me thinking that mine do weigh a little more than my old self use to

Gosh what I would do to have my little boobies back

Before my boobs stuck out further than my stomach

Now my stomach sticks out a lot further than my boobs

and yes I do feel nauseated at times

This is sooo gross... I do not think I can cry anymore

I pick my belly up and hold it in with my hands when I can just the weight of my belly hurts me

My left breast is partially deformed from being pulled through my underarms

Before implants 118 lbs

After Implants 178 lbs

Currently 161.5 lbs

Sandy~