need to talk

[Guest guest]

You know that I am in school online working on my Masters in MH counseling.

Last quarter I almost quit but decided I was too close to finishing to quit.

I had my first residency two weeks ago. I made it through pretty well other

than being extremely tired. I slept most of the next two days afterwards.

Then I flew home Tues. I slept the next two days half the day.

I turned in some assignments last week. Yesterday I received them back

telling me to redo them. My writing was disjointed, etc. I am a writer. And

I am good also. BUT, when doing research for a paper I can not hold a

thought in my head longer than two minutes. LOL. No wonder my writing is

disjointed. I reread but do not catch this. I reread several times.

Last night I remembered that when I signed up there was a program offered

that was shorter but did not end in licensure. I thought maybe I have

completed the classes for that level without worrying about any more. Maybe

I can just finish with my Masters without the licensure. Of course, that

will limit the jobs I can apply for. Right now, I am physically unable to

work full time anyways. The ideas I have for my business do not require that

I be licensed.

I do not know if any of that makes sense. Nothing makes sense to me these

days. I would appreciate any ideas/suggestions. I keep thinking of the debt

I am acuumlulating that I will not be able to repay since I will not be able

to work full time. Right now, I am over $40,000 in debt in student loans. I

still have another 1 1/2 yrs to go which will be another 23,000. Yikes!! How

will I ever repay that?

I can't talk to my partner about this since he wants me to go on to get my

doctorate. He would have a cow if he knew I was considering quitting as soon

as I get the basics done. I am tired. I am ready to be done with school so I

can start applying my degree to something.

thanks for listening and any ideas,

maryruth